~5i V!z PaCum PaRaBeLLum~

gdbye everyone~

2006-07-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

jus wanna say gdbye to everyone.. gonna serve my country starting tml.. yeah dat dreaded day has finally caught up with me.. so i'll cya guys arnd yeah? lolz.. wish me luck.. *crossing fingers

25-6-2006

2006-06-25T13:22:00.000+08:00

pissed. fucking pissed. jus walked out on my family lunch. so really fucking pissed. faggot uncle. y cant dey jus lemme pursue my own ambitions in life. is it so wrong to wanna join the police force for 5 years and get a degree after dat. each time a damn relative pesters me to re-think abt my decision, it eats at me inside. and its been eating and nibbling and chewing away until it reached a point dat i culdnt take it anymore and jus exploded and walked out on lunch which the whole damn family gathered to remember my late grandmother. i dun feel any remorse. i dun feel a single bit of regret at all for doing wad i did. im happy i walked out. when i was walking home with nickelback blasting in my ears frm my ipod, i felt free. i jus wanted to keep walking and nv go home. nv turn back. jus continue walking and see where my feet take me. life's a journey of self discovery. but wad self discovery is dere when u cant even make ur own decision?

Always in my heart

2006-06-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

woke up dis morning frm my ringing phone at 10am.. call came frm my aunt's hse.. answered the call and the person at the other end didnt say anything.. tot it was one of the kids playing a prank on me so i called my aunt's number back.. after 3 tries my aunt answered... told me to rush down cos my grandma had choked.. didnt think it was bad at first cos she chokes all the time.. when i went over i saw 3 paramedics trying to revive her.. they're lil machine chiming 'no heart pulse detected..' stretchered her off to hospital immediately.. aunt julie went with dem in the ambulance.. she told me to call my mum to notify the family members immediately.. called my mum on my mobile.. wasnt fully awake yet so didnt really noe wad was going on.. too many things were happening dat my brain culd not register fast enuf.. reached the hospital at arnd 12.. saw my grandma lying on the bed with a tube sticking out of her mouth.. den it hit me lyk a freight train.. i've neva eva cried at any funeral or wheneva i saw a dead relative.. looking at my grandma's lifeless body.. smthing jus burst inside me and for the 1st time in the 21 years of my life.. i cracked and broke down... 1st time in 21 years i cried... it all happened in the morning.. grandma always choked.. cos she had alot of phlem.. been lyk dat for a very long time already.. doctors culd only do 1 thing abt it and dat was putting a tube down her throat permantly and feeding her liquids.. grandma didnt want dat.. she was a strong person.. she chose not to have the tubes.. and so she continued eating normally for the past couple of years... past few days she didnt really hav much appetite and was getting weaker.. aunt julie decided to giv her brand's essence of chicken since granny liked it.. aunt julie recalled hearing her choke while she was drinking.. neither she nor my uncle paid much attention.. it was a regular noise in the house.. granny's coughing and choking followed by cursing after dat.. 2dae was different... coughing... choking and den... silence... next thing dey knew... she was slumped in her chair... eyes closed, mouth wide open... gone... choked to death... by the damn brand's essence of chicken... dat little silent murderer... my uncle tried to revive her until the paramedics came... the doctors at the hospital did manage to revive her heart but she was already brain dead... b4 all of us culd swallow the fact dat she was brain dead, granny breathed her last... abt an hr after the doctors managed to revive her heart... gone.. for good... granny raised me up since i was young... she took care of me cos my parents had to work... i culd not hav asked for a betta grandmother... she wuld always ramble on and on abt how justin and i wuld visit her in the hospital wheneva she got warded... abt how justin and i were good kids growing up... abt how much she loved the 2 of us... abt how we were her 2 favourite grandkids... i'd giv anything to hear those ramblings now... letting go is hard... but its life... we all need 2 move on.... at least she didnt suffer so much cos she was already brain dead... at least she didnt hav 2 become a vegetable... granny... u'll always b in my heart... the memories will foreva b cherished... wad u hav done for me, bringing me up, will nv b forgotten... i'll miss u grandma... every nite i'll look at the empty rocking chair and picture u dere... sitting dere shaking ur head... rambling on abt how grandpa and aunt julie killed u 3 times... all ur constant cursing... granny... whereva u are... may ur soul rest in peace... may the lord welcome u into his kingdom where u will b happy, peaceful and free frm all the sickness dat plagued u on this earth... gdbye grandma.. i love u... a lil too late now... the song in the blog's going out to u grandma...

another choice..

2006-06-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

sianzz.. as if it wasnt hard enuf to choose between army and police.. now i've got another choice.. the air force.. lolz.. received a letter frm dem 2dae.. hmmm.. super sianzz.. dunno wad to choose now.. NoOooOOO!! graduation's coming soon! so fast! a few more days and i'll b officially out of temasek poly.. man.. im getting old.. all my frens are celebrating their 21st birthdays already sia!! man im OLD!! haiz..

Sunderland Moranges

2006-05-29T01:23:00.000+08:00

had a soccer match 2dae.. abt the match.. i got nth to say and the only thing i can do is shake my head in shame... the team's becoming more lyk sunderland.. if we took part in any league we'd b at the bottom of the table and the greatest achievement we culd possibly get was to battle relegation... dats how screwed up the team is starting to make me feel.. we can play lyk 10 games and win only 1.. dats pathetic.. dats screwed up.. dats farked up!! dammit... im tired of losing all the time... the key players in the team are always MIA.. cant blame tai cos he went to thailand for army training.. alloy's in army also.. amos? i hav no idea wad his excuse is.. tomo? no idea also.. mus hav been the rain.. stupid sissy boy.. called us up abt an hr b4 the match started and said he wasnt turning up.. dere goes our goalkeeper.. we need betta strikers.. or rather.. FASTER strikers.. our strikers cant run for NUTS.. and deres always the chance of our unable midfield breaking down.. midfielders are supposed to win the ball.. instead, i, a centre back, gotta drift off my defensive line to win balls in midfield! and the best part was i got scolded by a radio mouth for dat.. kns.. told sam not to call me anymore for matches unless we're playing against really screwed up teams.. i cant take it anymore.. ive had enuf of the team.. i threatened to quit last time and i think if this losing streak continues im outta the team.. period..

a sad sorrowful week

2006-05-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

well.. jus got my police letter a couple of days ago.. turns out if i do decide to sign the police bond i'll b going in on the 13th of june.. so much for a month's notice huh.. its only 3 weeks.. and if i do sign the bond means i'll most probably miss my graduation ceremony cos i gotta attend a briefing on the same day.. tried emailing the ppl at the email addresses enclosed with my letter.. asked dem if i culd mayb postpone the date of my enlistment cos of my graduation ceremony and i got my driving exam and classes to finish.. no reply yet.. oh well.. so now im stuck with 2 choices.. to sign the bond with the police and serve the 5 years or turn dem down and join the army.. i noe i was dead keen on joining the police.. but dat was den.. after reading the bond.. i realised dat dere were actually quite a few things dat dey didnt mention in the interviews.. quite a few things dat make the police not so good to sign a bond with.. so rite now im kinda torn between the two.. den deres the prob with getting 2 sureties if i decide to sign for police.. i dun hav anyone dat can fulfil all the requirements met by the police's bond.. tried talking to mel abt these problems.. was hoping she wuld hav at least heard me out abt everything and den judge frm dere after she knew everything.. but she cut me short and asked me to make my decision.. got quite upset with her cos of dat cos i really wanted to share with her how i was feeling and wanted her opinion after she had a better view of everything.. cos its really not wad it seems.. oh well.. read her blog jus now.. shes angry at me cos i chewed her up and spat her out.. i dun see how 'the least u culd hav done was hear me out abt the things concerning the police force and the army.. let me explain wad i feel abt the bond and everything but nvm la.. i'll go think it thru den decide frm dere since u keep pushing me to make a decision' shoes dat im angry and i chewed her up and spat her out.. i've been trying to analyse it for the past 8 hrs and until now i dun see how dat links.. anyway.. fine.. im sorry.. its my fault.. i'll jus leave it at dat.. i will not dive into the situation and try to analyse everything and point fingers at who's wrong or who's rite.. i'll jus leave it at dat.. i'll probably take the next few days to think it thru.. so many factors.. sigh.. all i wanted was someone to share dis big change in my life with..

If I Were You - Hoobastank

2006-05-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
You look for all that's wrong instead of all that's right
Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
You never say a word unless it's to complain
It's driving me insane

If I were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars for all that I have
If I were you

Look what surrounds you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
So what's it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If I were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I’d do
Is thank the stars above
Tell the world I love that I do
If I were you
If I were you
If I were you
If I were you

So what's it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If I were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I’d do
Is thank the stars above
For the world I love
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that I’ve wanted to
If I were you
If I were you
If I were you

nutmeg day~!

2006-05-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

nutmeg.. dats when u put the soccer ball thru ur opponent's legs.. 2dae was a nutmegging day for me.. scored 8 nutmegs 2dae!!! dats lyk.. the most i've eva done on a sunday kickabout.. lolz.. 2 highlights.. 1st one was when we playing against dis team of army men.. was running up against dis guy, flicked the ball thru his legs and ran past him.. when he ran back to defend i slotted the ball thru his legs again.. double dose.. lolx!! the 2nd highlight was against my cousin justin and his fren jia soon.. lolz.. i had the ball and was storming down the left side of the court when my cousin tried to cut me off so i tapped the ball thru his legs.. dat left me in a 1 on 1 situation against jia soon who was guarding the goalpost so when he rushed out to tackle me i toe-poked the ball thru his legs as well.. open goal -> goal.. lolz.. 2 lobangs and a goal.. wad a rush.. haha.. super tired after dat.. fell asleep watching triple x jus now.. jus woke up.. haha.. alritey den.. hopefully more nutmegs to come.. yeah~

2006-05-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

mission impossible 3... it rox!! i watched it twice in 2 days already!! for those who havent caught it yet.. ur missing out on a really great movie..

What's Left Of Me - Nick Lachey

2006-05-03T00:07:00.000+08:00

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You gave me a reason for standing still

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me It's not all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?

Photo - Ryan Cabrera

2006-04-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

A photo can say a thousand things
But it can't say the million things I wanna say
A photo can capture the way we were
But it can't capture the way we are
'Cause you're far away

What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts
'Cause I'm looking at your picture'
Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

Timing lost minutes and moments
And I might be lonely girl
But I'm not afraid
In a second
It all comes right back to me
Nothing's forgotten now
Yeah everything's saved

What it's like to touch you
What it's like to know you

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts
'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

You were my life
you were my faith
You gave me hope every day

When you told me that you loved me
were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
and I know that hurts
'Cause I'm looking at your picture
'Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day
You and me will have one more shot

Enlistment

2006-04-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

walau.... jus came home from dinner with mel.. came home and found a green letter on top of my comp... enlistment letter.... spoil my whole damn mood sia.... ZZZZZZZZZz!! NOOOoooOoOooo!! ARGHHHHHHH!!!

sicK!!!!

2006-04-21T12:47:00.000+08:00

dammit! im sick! grrrrr! got flu and abit of sore throat.. caught the virus from pat.. oh well.. got my police letter again yrstrday.. gtg for medical checkup on monday morning at raffles.. starting to hav doubts abt signing on.. some ppl tell me its a gd choice while others disagree.. so guess i'll think carefully abt it over the weekend.. hmmmm.. received the graduation ceremony letter from TP also.. gtg register for it also.. lolz..

April 18th

2006-04-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

got chased by my neighbour's dog 2dae.. stupid boy let it run around loose along the corridor.. mongrel looking dog with rabbit ears and a super constipated face.. dunno wad u call dat kinda dog.. yeesh.. was playing dod source jus now and met dis korean guy in the server.. kinda an ass cos he was blocking the exit of our spawn points and friendly fire was off.. meaning dat we culdnt kill him so we culd get out of the spawn point.. and the best part was.. he said, i quote "joac5ter this an trap. you like a mouse here." i was lyk wtf??? dis guy's english sux man!!! dis an trap?? wth is he talking sia.. so i replied he was being idiotic and he said i was a chidolo.. dunno wth is dat.. mayb some korean monkey-ish language or dialect which is spoken from where he comes frm.. mayb some kampung village situated along a river where dey bathe and crap in.. so i jus said baka desu and he replied he hated me and he switched teams.. i was lyk yes! he's gone! poor guy didnt even cap any flags or kill anyone at the end of the map.. dats lyk so sad.. he paid US$19.90 not to enjoy the game but to make sure others cant enjoy the game.. wad a life.. i pity him now dat i think of it.. lolz.. oh well.. dats y i nv lyk playing in the korean and china servers.. so many idiotic ppl..

To my dearest

2006-04-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

i noe i hav my faults jus lyk all the rest.. yet u make me feel lyk im up dere with the best.. even when i do smthing dat makes other ppl frown.. u keep ur sense of humour & neva put me down.. ur patience is amazing and ur kindness is immense.. somehow u understand me even when i dun make sense.. u make me feel special no matter wad i do.. i noe im lucky to hav someone lyk u.. hehe.. =D

Photographs - A Tribute To My Dearest Friends

2006-04-04T16:04:00.000+08:00

Look at this photograph..Everytime I do it makes me laugh..
How did our eyes get so red?
And what the hell is on Danial's head?

And this is where I grew up..
I think the town council fixed it up..
I don't know what we'd ever do without..
The late night matches over at Pat's house..

St Pats was where I went to school..
Most of the time had better things to do..
School records say I broke the rules twice..
I must have done it half a dozen times..

I wonder if It's too late?
Should i go back and try to graduate?
With better results than i had since then..
If I was them I wouldn't let me in..

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom door
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friends that I were looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Remember the old cybercafe?
Blew every dollar that we ever made..
The auntie giving us the best comps there..
And philip losing his bag on the stairs..

We used to listen to the radio..
And sing along with every song we know..
We said someday we'd find out how if feels..
To sing to more than just the steering wheel..

P's the first girl I kissed..
I was so nervous that I nearly missed..
She's had a couple of guys since then..
I haven't seen her since god knows when..

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom door
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friends that I were looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
I miss that town..
I miss the faces..
You can't erase..
You can't replace it..
I miss the times..
I can't believe it..
So hard to stay..
So hard to leave it..

If I could I re-live those days..
I know the one thing that would never change..

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom door
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friends that I were looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph..
Everytime I do it makes me laugh..
Everytime I do it makes me..

tales of an allied soldier

2006-03-29T00:33:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.. long time nv blog le.. dunno wad 2 blog abt also.. so i'll jus write a short story while waiting for the arsenal and juventus match to start.. hmmmm.. lets see....

The door clicked shut softly behind me. Taking a moment to draw a huge breath of air to steady myself, i tightened my grip around the cold wooden grip of my springfield rifle. Slowly and stealthtily, i crept over to the window - the only thing that seperated me from a whole group of german grenadiers out in the street. Out of the corner of my eye, i saw the rest of my company advancing on the unsuspecting germans from an alley between two buildings. "Showtime", i told myself. Raising my rifle and looking through the cold hard metal scope, i squeezed the trigger.

A loud bang and my target fell to the ground, blood gushing out from the hole in his neck like a fountain splurting blood. The whole street immediately erupted with gunfire as my company rushed out of the shadows of the alleyways and opened fire. Different voices all over the street yelled in union to the sound of the guns like a chorus to a song. "Scarfshutze", "medic", "man down" and "grenade" ruled the lyrics of this painful song that was playing in the street as one by one, soldiers fell to the ground either dead or clutching their wounds. Blinking my eyes, i shook my head to try to get rid of the distractions. Spotting a german mg42 machine gunner behind one of the windows, i took aim. Time seemed to slow down at that point. as the cross of my scope fell on the head of the machine gunner, i squeezed the trigger again, sending him to the ground and his helmet flying off his head with a loud "thunk" only audible to the other german soldiers around my target.

As the battle in the street wore on, the "music" of gunfire and screams slowly died down. Allied and german soldiers lay sprawled all over the entire stretch of road like a carpet on a floor. So much death, i thought to myself. If only there was no such thing as war. If only somehow i could lay down my rifle and not fight the war. Trained by the army to be a cold hearted killer whose job was to watch people die through a small circular circumference, was that how i wanted to live my life? Turning around, i caught a glimpse of a german karbiner rifle pointed at my head. Too late.

2006-03-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

been wanting to upload dis pic for a very long time.. its the highest score i have eva gotten in dod.. my most memorable nite playing dod.. =D

MiLyKdOg

wad now joac..?

2006-03-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

jus came home from sakae sushi with pat and gang.. received a letter from tp 2dae.. saying dat i graduated with diploma in mwc.. dat got me thinking.. wad now joac..? now dat i've graduated.. wad am i gonna do..? suddenly im worried.. the next hurdle for me is ns.. after dat..? will i b able to go to uni..? will my parents still have enuf $ to send me to uni..? i originally intended to sign up for police.. earn some $ first during the 5 years to pay for my uni education.. take a degree at a private uni.. but until now i still havent received any news from the police.. so guess most likely i didnt get the position.. so wad now..? so many things looking uncertain in my future now.. sigh... so wad now joac..? we'll see..

big match big match!!

2006-03-08T20:30:00.000+08:00

caught underworld evolution with pat 2dae.. cool show.. abit gory but its a nice show.. bought a new pair of soccer socks and boots!! bought myself a pair of total 90 III boots.. black and grey.. goes with the socks and the team jersey.. lolz.. got a match coming up on sunday.. really looking forward to it after my performance at the basketball court last sunday.. got shot at upside down but didnt let a goal in.. muahahahahaha.. super hyped and super high morale for sunday's match!!! and chelsea's outta the champions league!!!! so sad sam.. lolz.. try again next season ya? =P liverpool liverpool c'mon liverpool!! alrite.. dear's got her advance theory re-test tml.. knowing her.. shes watching tv now instead of studying.. gonna call her and nag den bathe and mayb play brainbread ltr with the other [SGDOD] guys.. alrite den.. til the next post! beunos noches~

cowardly courage..

2006-02-23T10:19:00.000+08:00

hah.. it happened again.. dat stupid ah seng... elson asked me to get a cd title master copy from him and a card reader from the motorola lab for him urgently.. so i went to the lab.. lihong told me to do the rejects for the chips and i told her i wuld do it ltr cos i had 2 pass smthing to elson 1st.. so dis ah seng.. as usual.. sticking his nose into things not of his own business.. goes arnd complaining abt me again.. saying dat im so slow and i got the bochup attitude and i dunno how to prioritize my work.. oh well.. i kinda figured dat i culd ask my boss to extend me and i can irritate the shyt outta him for another month.. but lyk dear used to say.. dun anyhow find trouble for urself la.. so guess i wun b extending afterall.. not worth getting into major trouble... dis kinda ppl... they'll always b arnd no matter where u go... the kind dat talk behind ur back and when ur face to face with dat person dey jus keep quiet and act lyk nothing has happened.. walls hav ears ah seng.. trust me.. someday... ur retribution will come... cowardly courage will be ur downfall...

my curse..

2006-02-21T11:06:00.000+08:00

somehow it seems... whereva i go.. deres always a grumpy old man whos always not happy with me for no apparent reason at all.... first it was safe superstore... the cleaner dere hated me for god noes y i do not noe... he used to scold me everyday when i worked dere... wad i did to him i do not noe... den deres my neighbour who stays above me... each time he sees me he stares at me lyk he wants to eat me up... wad did i eva do to him too? den now comes my current company.. microalliance... deres dis dispatch driver called ah seng... out of nowhere he suddenly has a problem with me... i dun talk to him... i nv spoke to him b4 since i stepped into the company and he's got a problem with me.... yrstrday i screwed up i admit... lihong gave me a box of rejected motorola chips to check and i admit it was my mistake not to double check with her the part number cos usually she would tell me and usually the part number would be on the box.. so i jus followed the part number that was on the box.. unfortunately for me.. it turned out to be the wrong part number... so 2dae when i came 2 work... the QC ppl called me in cos dey tot dere was smthing wrong with their QC master copy.. when dey realised dat i had done the wrong part things were still ok cos im quite 'gam' with the QC ppl... but out of nowhere.. dis ah seng shows up and starts to kpkb... hes got nth to do with dis and hes sticking his nose into it... so im dere in the lab re-doing the chips and turns out he wants to scold me... overheard lihong telling him not to scold me and he said "aiyah gd also dat he's bye bye soon".. den being the big mouth dat he is he went to the office and started spreading my mistake to all the ppl dere.. can ppl get any lower? to butt their noses into things outside of their daily business and den go around spreading it lyk it was the top story in the day's newspaper? its not the 1st time it has happened.. he thinks he owns the whole place.. every day he walks into the office yelling the name of the person he's looking for... he's a super rude and uncout person with a very irritating and loud voice... oh well... luckily its the last week of sip already... after dis week i wun hav to see his stupid face and he wun hav to see mine... i've already decided.... even if my boss asked me to extend.. which he still hasnt.. i dun intend to... unless the pay's real gd of cos... if not... forget it.... im outta here... guess dis will always be my burden.... my curse.... to carry arnd with me for the rest of my life.... the grumpy old men curse...

9/2/06

2006-02-09T18:24:00.000+08:00

well.. in the office now.. lolz.. jus came back from the coffee shop.. went to buy dinner.. gotta stay back 2nite to finish up 9 dvd titles dats due by 2nite.. sianzzzz.. it almost 630 and we havent even gotten the master copies yet! lyk wth sia.. confirm gonna OT until lyk...... 12am? super sianzzz sia.. missing dear dear now.. if only i didnt hav to OT... i culd b sharing an umbrella with her rite now.. walking her home.. lolz.. instead... im drenched cos i had to go buy dinner.. haha.. oh well.. anyway.. nth much 2 do now also.. sit arnd and wait for time to pass.. wait for elson to return with the master copies so we can start work and go home.. lolz.. hmmmm.. lets see.. dear's 1st yr pressi... quite abt completed already bah... bought the envelope yrstrday.. jus hope she lyks it.. lolz.. ju said it was lame but touching.. lolz.. and jas said its nice~ so cross fingers!! hope it brings a huge smile to her face.. might not b much but.. i hope.. hehe.. alrite den.. til the next post~

haiz...

2006-02-01T19:24:00.000+08:00

haiz.... stupid china women.... totally ruined my day...... havent seen dear since last thursday.... was so looking forward to seeing her jus now... missed her so much.... den jus as i was about to leave my office my boss called me.... told me to go help the damn china idiots to adjust the colour for the production cds.... tot wuldnt take me so long.... guess i was wrong... freaking ppl.... freaking printer.... damn printer kept giving me all sorts of problems.... paper jams... pathetic colours... and each time after i print a test sheet i gotta restart the damn printer and wait cos it says paper jam and asks me to restart the machine when theres no bloody paper jam at all....!! and the best part was the freaking china women said dat the colours were not acceptable....!! so i had to keep re-doing the stupid colour for the cd artwork... after the 4th time i was cursing at dem inside already.... 'no no cannot.. the colour doesnt match..' how the hell u wan me to get the damn same colour as the master copy when the printer sux?!? i tried telling dem dat the printer was really crappy today but they wuldnt listen.... i even tried printing out the colour charts for them but the printer choked and ripped the paper so i had to open it up to remove the paper jams all over the place.... not my bloody fault.... already printed stuff with that printer in the morning and i knew dat the printer needed servicing badly... but the stupid people wuldnt listen to me.... freaking china idiots.... haiz..... heart ache..... pathetic day....

[SGDOD]

2006-01-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

finally~!! after so long~!! i finally managed to get into [SGDOD]!!! when i opened my inbox jus now i tot i was dreaming.. when i saw the email i blinked lyk 5 times cos i tot i saw wrongly sia!! but nope~!! i didnt see wrongly and yes!! im in~!! my long awaited wish has come true~!! a big thank u to decomoto, blackprince and pinggu.. for letting me join the community~! w00t~ 2dae is a gd day sia~ i managed to get my leave system working!! didnt wanna tell my boss cos he sure to gimme xtra work but he asked abt the progress so told him in the end.. lolz.. oh well.. haha.. doesnt really matter.. im super happy now~!! [SGDOD]+JoaC5teRN signing out~!!

cold sunday~

2006-01-08T16:45:00.000+08:00

jus came home from tm.. went dere after church.. went to get my hair cut and brought my 2 lil cousins to the arcade.. kids these days have lyk an in-built aiming system when it comes to shooting games sia.. i let them try playing ghost squad and dey were head shooting and killing all the bad guys with their eyes closed!! i was stunned!! and i guess so were the other ppl around cos dere was quite a big crowd watching dem play.. lolz.. haven blogged for quite awhile.. been busy.. work work and more work.. lolz.. when im free i try to catch up on as much DOD as possible and wadeva games ive got.. lolz.. alrite den.. back to gaming~ til the next post.. hope its soon.. =P

HePpi BeRtHdAe 2 MiEeEe

2005-12-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to meeeeeeee~ so paiseh 2dae.. pat and daph and all sang the birthday song to me in the middle of the church foyer.. so paiseh!! aiyoh!!! but it was so nice of dem!! *hugzz well.. nothing really much happened today la.. went to church.. den went to eat chicken rice for lunch... den went to funan to get the present for my company's christmas celebrations.. each person supposed to bring a gift to exchange.. den went to peninsula to get a new pair of shoes.. stepped on vomit when i was dere.. so sway.. ZZZzz.. lolz.. 3 ppl sms me at 12am dis morning.. dear,jy and ron were competiting to see who would wish me 1st.. in the end it was ron followed by dear and jy.. lolx.. try harder dear.. =P haha.. so my presents so far are shoes from my mum and ang pao from my dad.. lolz.. oh and a towel from my nephew joel and his parents.. a simple but memorable birthday.. =) i wun ask for anything more..

;)

2005-12-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

i was so close to getting my own comp and table at work.. lolz.. but my stupid colleague stole it from me.. smtimes i dun understand these kinda ppl.. change comp already still wanna keep their old comp to use.. for wad? den take up MY space to put her old comp dere for display.. stupid woman.. somemore help her fix up her new comp neva even thank me! not even a simple thank u!!! its lyk i owe dat stupid woman my life or something.. super pek chek with her.. only noe how 2 make use of ppl.. anyway... went shopping after work 2dae.. bought dear dis white adidas bag.. she kept saying she didnt want it but at the same time kept dropping hints dat she wanted it.. lolz.. so cute.. she kept smiling after she got the bag.. haha.. dear.. hope u lyk it.. =) dropzones ended last friday.. had a great time playing.. cant wait til the next dropzones..

sick ='(

2005-12-04T16:45:00.000+08:00

1st of all.. thanx 2 everyone for the birthday celebration yrstrday.. u guys are a wonderful bunch.. and the ghost squad card.. i neva expected it cos i hardly play dat game anyway.. lolz.. but it was really v nice and touching of dem to get me a card.. *sobz sobz.. once again thx a million guys!!! well.. im shivering my butt off rite now.. went 2 the doc dis morning.. i got v high fever and severe tonsilitis.. lolx.. so my throat hurts lyk hell.. so much for laughing at chienhui last time when she got it.. now my turn.. lolx.. retribution.. wahahahahaha.. i got dis weird feeling i got dengue.. cos my fever keeps going away and coming back and im feeling hot and cold and im shivering so much and the best part is i keep getting these rashes on my arms and legs!! dey come and go and when dey come its super itchy!!! curse the damn mosquitoes dat bit me!!! grrrr!!! the doc kinda didnt even bother when i told him i had rash.. he jus looked at the paper and kept writing.. lolz.. if i really kenna dengue and i gtg hospital i'll make sure i complain to MOH abt him sia.. negligence!! neva listen to the patient and examine properly!! lolx.. my dad gave me a pair of sunglasses last nite.. its the one dat the young matt murdock uses in the daredevil movie.. looks v cool!! i was expecting the other pair which matt murdock uses as a grown up but wad the heck.. its still a v cool pair.. so now i got 2 pairs of sunglasses~! muahahaha.. 1 pair from daredevil and the other one from mission impossible 2~ the one dat tom cruise used~ muahaha.. hmmm.. k la.. dear go off msn le.. time 2 go sit 1 corner and shiver again.. wahahahaha..

busy busy~

2005-12-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

2dae was the busiest day of my life.. so much things to do!! lolx.. and b4 i knew it.. bang~!! 530pm.. time to go home.. lolx.. got my pay 2dae.. 300+ bucks.. lolz.. saw pierre png at tampines jus now.. he was filming some chinese show with 2 other girls at the pasar malam.. i kept going "mei ren yu" when dear and i walked past.. lolx.. cos the character he plays in one of the chinese shows keeps going "mer ren yu".. lolz.. so was kinda imitating him.. haha.. so long neva blog liaoz.. lolz.. oh ya! happy birthday to anthony~! he's 19 2dae~! haha.. my turn coming soon.. 20.. haiz.. so old.. im already feeling old.. Zzzzz.. now dat i got my pay.. wad shld i buy 1st..? i wanna buy new shoes.. a new bag.. mayb not a bag.. i wanna get the robosapien!!! or the roboraptor!!! its so cool!!! i can put it in my room and set it on guard mode or jus let it run around lyk a real pet! well.. 150 for articifial intelligence.. still considering if it will b worth it or not.. last time i bought smthing lyk dat was the poochi dog.. and i got bored of it after awhile.. but its different la.. its not really AI as compared to the roboraptor and sapien.. so in a way.. hmmm.. i'll keep dat in view.. lolz.. mayb tml or wad when i go to the pasar malam i'll get a cover for my ngage qd.. if not the original one get scratches my heart will ache.. lolz.. saw the liverpool away jersey at the pasar malam 2dae.. omg it looks super real lor!! so does the man utd away jersey! and the england one as well!! wah.. instead of spending 100 bucks on an original with carragher's name i culd hav gotten 5 jerseys instead.. lolz.. crap.. anyway.. jus tested out some codes for dis project my boss assigned me.. cant work.. hahaha.. tml think i go work tell him im trying to debug bah.. well.. in a way i am.. hahahaha..

a load off my shoulders

2005-11-15T21:43:00.000+08:00

lolz.. yeah.. im sitting in front of my comp drinking cream of chicken soup.. got a huge load off my shoulders with the completion of the company website.. lolz.. can relax abit 2nite.. my next project.. gotta start on it soon.. the leave system.. lolz.. gonna hav a huge headache with dat one.. haha.. anyway.. works been kinda cool so far.. kinda getting used to the place.. installed alot of games in my ngage.. been playing at work wheneva i hav a lil bit of time.. hehe.. pathway to glory's actually quite a nice game.. its my cup of tea.. world war II.. controlling a squad.. i love dat game.. kinda hooked on it.. and alphalt urban gt also.. dear was complaining the other day shes the heaviest among her office colleagues.. lolz.. bad for her but better for me.. hehe.. hope she grow fatter.. she so skinny now.. lolz.. k la.. my soup getting cold.. lolx.. blog again next time.. muahahahaha.. food~!!

weekend~!!

2005-11-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

went to watch jus lyk heaven after work yrstrday with dear.. nice show~! almost cried.. lolx.. felt so sad for dat david character!! cos he help dat elizabeth so much when she was a spirit and when she woke up from her coma she culdnt remember him! den his face was so sad!! so yeah.. felt so sorry for him!! lolz.. den we watched sky high 2dae in the afternoon.. quite a cute show.. kinda funny too.. lolz.. anyway.. went window shopping for clothes.. gonna go buy some clothes.. if not i'll b wearing lyk the same things to work.. lolz.. isetan men's department got quite alot of nice clothes to think of it.. lolz.. cant decide wad clothes to buy now.. haha.. the cd i bought came 2dae.. gonna borrow the mmc card reader from junyan and start installing the files soon.. anyway.. my company's webbie is nearly done.. boss keeps pushing me to get it done.. he spot checked me 3 times on friday to see the progress of the website sia~ Zzzzz.. crazy.. he initially wanted me to finish it on friday.. dat was lyk.. 3 days?!?! how 2 do in 3 days sia!! if i dun hav anything to do during work den yeah.. 3 days i go office jus to do website can la.. but i dun even hav the resources at work to do the webbie.. Zzzzz.. wait.. lemme put it dis way.. i dun even hav my own table.. which means i dun hav my own computer.. which also means i dun hav the stuff lyk dreamweaver or fireworks.. lolx.. in the end i did the temporary webbie on an imac.. lolx.. guess i dun really blame the boss la.. cos the company webbie was out.. the server crashed and dey desperately needed to get a website on the net.. jus my luck it crashed when i joined dem for internship.. lolz.. as the days go by i realised dat my company's actually not bad.. the ppl dere are nice.. and the workload's manageable.. lolz.. anything can always ask elson or millie.. the 2 ppl im attached to for the next 4 months.. lolz.. slacked with millie and drank milo in the IT room on friday.. lolz.. the place is lyk sooooo cold!!! lolz.. dear suddenly obssessed with chicken little.. lolz.. oh ya!! she looked soooooooo cute 2dae!!! she was wearing dis coverall which those kids in america wear.. haha.. so cute!! lolx..

office outing escapade~

2005-11-09T13:01:00.000+08:00

lolz.. im at HP in alexandra now.. boss sent me dere 2dae to burn cd and dvd images.. so yeah.. will be here the whole day.. confirm cannot reach back microalliance in time cos the cds and dvds all burning so slowly.. 4x only the speed.. lolz.. sianzzz diao.. anyway.. managed to do the splash page for the company website.. linked it to the system dis morning.. so the splash page is now connected to the temporary website.. will try to complete the entire webbie soon but dunno if can or not cos i dun really hav the required tools in the company.. so the only time i can do the webbie is when i get home.. which leaves me abt an hr or 2 to do it until i go to bed.. so i'll do me best.. lolz.. gonna go for lunch soon.. stomach growling.. lolz..

1st day of work...

2005-11-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

1st day of SIP.. and it kinda sucked.. 1st day and i nearly had to work overtime.. and already i got 2 projects to do.. the 1st being the company website and the 2nd is an online leave application program.. on top of dat i spent the day going arnd the office learning and doing all sorts of stuff.. from installing antivirus definitions in the computers in the motorola lab to learning abt the graphics for Hewlett packard cds to printing the labels and learning how 2 do backups for the database.. busy busy day!! the only times i culd reply my sms from dear and junyan were when i went to the toilet.. lolz.. dat was how busy i was.. had a 20 min lunch.. walk to the food centre 5 mins le.. buy food and eat 10 mins.. den walked back.. 20mins.. i was feeling so tired and down when i met dear jus now at the tampines mrt station after work.. but she jus made my day~!! so happy now~!! cos SIP ends on the 25th of feb and its also our 1st year on dat day!! and we jus planned to get a room in sentosa and have dinner by the beach to celebrate our 1st year!! at the same time can go exploring or to underwater world or smthing!! now i cant wait til our 1st year~!!! ahhhhhhh~!!! im so happy~!! thinking wad 2 get for dear for our 1st year~ actually tot of getting her a ring.. not those $30++ from perlini's silver but those dat cost at least $100 bucks from the jewelry shops.. hehe.. but she sure make noise one la.. sure scold me for buying so ex.. lolx.. so i'll jus observe her wishlist from now til den and if possible.. get everything in it.. muahahaha.. alrite den.. im 1 day closer to the 25th feb~!! now i've got smthing to look and work forward to!! work.. jus bring it.. gimme ur best shot!!!

stupid gut feeling...............

2005-11-03T13:16:00.000+08:00

jus saw my SIP posting... and my stupid gut feeling was rite... posted to some ulu place alone doing programming.......... haiz......... i took 1 look at it and i told myself die liaoz......... loyang industrial estate....... checked street directory... only 1 bus goes dere... wahahahahha.. when i saw my tasks.... i dunno whether to laugh or pity myself sia....

Task:
1. To assist in the programming and maintenance of Organization Information system. 2. To Assist in User support (network/OS/application). 3. To perform loading and passback data between internal system and Customer systems. 4. Assist in the preparation of first article preparation and mail merging data mapping.

wth is all this?!?!?!?!

Preferred diploma & number of students required:
Diploma in Information Technology (ITO) (C0B) :1

and of all the ppl dey take me... and im not even from ITO!!! LMAO!!!

haiz... dunno la.. wahahahahaha.. crap... jus hope for the best... the most fail SIP only.. dere is no shame in failing~!!!

Emily Rose?

2005-11-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

1215am.. jus came home from tm.. went to catch the show "the exorcism of emily rose" with pat, phil, dan and daph.. nice show.. really got me thinking abt the supernatural and other stuff.. and abt religion as well.. i hav 2 say.. i found the story of emily rose very moving.. i mean.. she got possessed by 6 demons.. imagine the pain she was going thru.. scratching and trying to bite holes in walls.. on top of dat.. she chose to stay and suffer so dat other ppl would noe abt the spiritual world and dat the light and dark sides do exist.. dats lyk.. super strong faith in god man... wow.. i really admire her.. its supposed to b based on a true story.. but whether it is or not i still respect the character in the story.. no matter how much pain and suffering she was going thru she held on rite to the end.. think i'll do some digging up on dis emily rose person.. see wad i can find.. b4 the credits it said dat alot of ppl visit emily rose's grave and dat shes a saint.. cant really seem to find anything abt her.. the search results keep giving me the movie webbie and reviews.. haha.. anyway.. heres a brief summary of wad happened the past couple of days.. went for my medical at cmpb last friday.. Pes A.. haha.. been playing initial d quite alot lately.. bought a new card.. mitsubishi evo VII.. so now both my cars are upgraded quite a fair bit already.. den 2dae went to new pheonix park for the police selection.. its a really cool place.. the lifts are hi-tech man.. deres dis keypad thingy where u select the floor u wanna go to and the screen tells u which elevator to take.. when u get into the lift, theres only 2 buttons.. 1 for closing the door and the other to hold it open.. no buttons for floors!! the lift actually takes u to the floor dat u wanna go straight.. lyk if u press 4 on the keypad at the lift landing, the respective lift takes u to the 4th floor and only the 4th floor.. i mean.. how cool is dat man.. security-wise and all.. i was lyk.. woah.. cool.. nothing else happened i think.. kinda tired to think and remember.. kinda not in a gd mood as well.. haiz.. saw dis pair of cute piglet bedroom slippers.. its pink with a piglet head at the toes and i tot of dear.. so bought it for her.. tot she wuld lyk it.. well.. received a lecturing when i gave it to her and she wanted to giv it back to me.. haiz.. dunno la..

Blue Light..

2005-10-23T02:00:00.000+08:00

changed a few things in my blog.. kinda hooked on the song dats playing in it rite now.. lolz.. haven blogged for a long time.. well.. lets see.. a few days ago i dreamt dat i was playing intial d in dis huge arcade.. and the machine i was playing on was faulty!! each time i shifted the gear up it would go back to gear 1 on the screen.. so i kinda was racing at lyk.. 40km/h? lolz.. luckily the person i was racing against was my mum and she didnt noe anything abt changing gears.. lolx.. the next nite i dreamt dat my dad was trying to murder the family.. lolz.. he was driving us to some ulu place and he had a gun under the front seat of the car.. too much grand theft auto for me huh.. lolz.. well.. guess the dream made me realise smthing.. dat i kinda take my dad for granted a lil bit.. i mean.. he wasnt really dere for me growing up and all.. but hes still my dad.. and no matter how much we've drifted apart since young.. hes still my dad.. lyk my mom said.. hes neva around for me or her or the family... but.. after dat dream.. i dunno.. i jus feel kinda bad dat i hardly talk to him and all.. in a way its smthing to learn from i guess.. so dat if i eva start my own family i'd noe dat i gotta b dere for my family.. but no matter wad.. hes still my dad.. and i'll cherish him lyk i cherish my mom and family.. hey.. its neva too late to learn from ur mistakes...

phew~

2005-10-15T20:37:00.000+08:00

1st things 1st.. i passed my advance theory~! muahahaha!! ron and me passed it on our 1st attempt~!! dear failed.. lolx.. and yun re-taking her basic theory for the 4th time.. gambate~ jus came home from soccer.. actually 2dae supposed to go cycling with pat but he overslept.. lolz.. so didnt go in the end.. i scored... 6 goals 2dae.. muahahaha.. so shiok.. after so long.. finally score so many.. lye beng so poor thing.. not fated to score.. every shot he took hit the post.. lolz.. even andy scored!! wahahaha.. was quite a fun day.. oh ya.. bought the piglet shirt for dear which she wanted.. actually wanted to surprise her with it but some tutu jas pao toh abt it accidentally.. lolz.. ok la.. betta go bathe.. lolz..

=D

2005-10-06T19:26:00.000+08:00

its been a crazy 2 days.. pat came over yrstrday and we were playing grand theft auto san andreas.. went for lunch after dat.. den went to hobby point.. newly opened at century square.. was looking at all the initial d model cars.. so cool.. but 41 bucks for one.. lolx.. went to the arcade after dat.. played initial d.. now my ranking stands at 3 wins and 1 loss.. lolx.. pat played the lifter game.. was aiming for the psp.. but didnt get.. wahahaha.. den we played the stacker game.. sooooooooooooo close!! both of us were 2 blocks away from winning our nokia n-gage and..... cant remember wad phone pat wanted.. lolx.. got renewed interest in my grand theft auto le.. cos now im suppose to go around conquering other gang's territories and juggle time with my character's girlfriend.. lolx.. so 1 moment im in a firefight dodgeing bullets and the next im at the bar with my girlfriend.. but its a fun game.. so now i'll hav 2 split my time with gta and maple.. hehe.. well.. slept until 2pm today.. =p dear probably gonna go 'piggy!' when she reads dis.. lolx.. woke up jus in time 2 bathe, eat and play soccer.. scored a goal 2dae.. after dunno how long.. lolx.. oh ya.. i had the weirdest dream last nite.. i dreamt dat aliens were taking over the planet.. and they were holding us hostage in bus 292.. lolx.. dey were driving us back to their mothership when dear and me pressed the bus stopping button and the alien driver stopped the bus.. so we ran out and started running for our lives.. i decided dat we shld lay low at junyan's house cos the aliens were looking for us.. on the way dere we bumped into jas, junyan and singapore idol's daphney khoo.. so we were heading to junyan's house when we got ambushed by the aliens.. next thing i noe we're running around the levels of a hdb block trying to escape and im shooting energy bolts and teleporting ppl with the flick of my wrists.. cool.. lolx.. and so we ran.. and when we reached junyan's block we got into the lift.. not jus any lift.. willy wonka's glass elevator.. so it took us to a safe place.. and when we reached the safe house vin diesel was dere.. lolx.. and he was telling us dat everything wuld b alrite and we were safe.. kelly rowan from the oc was dere too.. dats all i remember b4 waking up.. lolx.. dis is where dear will push my head and go 'stupid brain.. dream dis kinda of thing.. play too many games already la u..' lolx.. i can hear those words from her already.. haha.. alrite.. til the next post den.. dinner time.. roast chicken~!! wahahahaha!!

Got my liverpool jersey~!!

2005-10-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

went out with daph, pat and dan to peninsula 2dae and yes~! we got our liverpool jerseys today!! muahahaha!! mine has carragher on the back while dan took sissoko.. lolx.. pat jus put his own name.. spoiler.. lolx.. we're gonna get the champions league one when it comes out next month.. i'll b putting crouch, dan-alonso and pat-gerard.. lolx.. cant wait~! so happy!! hehe.. was waiting and saving so long for 2dae.. wahahaha.. jeremy's leaving for china tml.. think i'll stay up 2nite cos gotta b at the airport at 615am to see him off.. lolx.. so if sleep also sleep for 2hrs nia.. might as well dun sleep..hehe.. tml going with dear to watch corpse bride~! hehe.. looks kinda nice.. animation-wise.. so i think it'll b quite a cool show.. hehe.. alrite den.. til the next post..

yucks...

2005-09-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

the skin on my arms are peeling.. so i tot.. wad the hell.. might as well make the most of it.. so i scratched the skin on my right arm into the shape of a cross.. lolx.. looks kinda cool.. cant say the same for the left arm tho.. lolx.. well.. finally cooked for mel a few days back.. cooked spaghetti.. gonna spent the next few days looking thru recipes to see wad else i can come up with for her.. been trying to save up money lately.. wanna buy the liverpool away jersey and add peter crouch's name on it.. haha.. liverpool~ im rooting for u guys this season.. kinda gave up on man utd.. everytime i watch their matches.. dey let me down.. either by losing or playing poorly.. look at rooney.. he got sent off during the villareal match.. dat was kinda the last straw for me already.. y cant he jus grow up.. haiz.. it really IS sad to see a player with such great potential change from a hero to a villian overnight.. all cos he was sarcastic to the ref.. haiz.. hmmm.. oh yeah.. passed my exams.. haha.. no sup papers.. no more papers in fact.. none to take anymore.. hope my internship will b ok.. hoping i end up with someone i noe and not alone in some company.. lolx..

=S

2005-09-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

well... 1st things 1st.. went out for breakfast with pat dis morning at yakun kaya toast.. after dat he came over to my house to look thru the net and papers for jobs.. lolx.. in the end we applied for a 3 day flyers distribution one.. spent the rest of the day playing games.. haha.. den dear came in the evening with cookies and brownies~!! so nice~!! hehe.. her 1st time baking yet.. dey were goooooood~~!! hehe.. well.. was sitting in front of the comp jus now and my right ear suddenly started to bleed from the ear hole.. lolx.. scared the crap outta me.. cos 1 moment i was fine and the next i felt dat my ear hole was a lil bit wet.. so used my finger to wipe the liquid away and found out it was blood!! i was lyk wtf!! omg!! got blood coming outta my ear!! i was damn freaked out sia!! lolx.. my head's been hurting since yrstrday.. haiz.. hopefully its not internal bleeding or some shyt.. lolx.. anyway.. skool's ole ole competition in a couple of hrs.. betta go get some sleep soon.. need all the strength i can get.. somemore now my ear and head leddat.. lolx.. if tml i suddenly die halfway lyk marc vivien foe while playing soccer.. its been a pleasure knowing everyone~! lolx.. alrite den.. til the next post.. hopefully.. wahahahaha..

王八蛋...

2005-09-08T19:12:00.000+08:00

was playing maple jus now.. dis guy tried to scam me.. haha.. he said dat by putting my pan lid in the trade window and pressing tab tab space enter he could make my pan lid become two.. lolx.. luckily i already found smthing not rite.. but i decided to try it anyway la.. lolx.. so i hit the keys slowly and it turns out tab tab space prompts u to confirm trade and by pressing enter, u actually confirm the trade.. lolx.. when i cancelled the trade the guy ran for his life and switched channels to ch 1.. which is the most crowded.. luckily i took a screenshot of the chat..wahahahaha.. managed to track him also.. den he logged off after dat.. lolx.. saw him disappear rite in front of me... hum ji guy... anyway... l3e1992 if ur reading dis... yes, i have a screenshot and yes, im reporting u to the game masters and yes, ur gonna get banned and yes, ur gonna lose all ur items and yes, im gonna defame u with all my accounts and yes, im gonna get my frens to defame u as well.. cool huh.. well.. dats wad u get for trying to scam me.. lolx.. 王八蛋... haha...

*yawnzzz

2005-09-08T05:48:00.000+08:00

6am... pat and phil staying over 2nite... they're asleep already... im staying awake to play maple... partly cos dey sleeping on my bed so i got nowhere to sleep..haha.. watched initial d jus now with dem at home... den went out for prata at around 3... watched the england match at the coffee shop... wad a letdown.... england always chokes in their international matches... saw jacky dere watching with 2 other girls as well... came home jus in time b4 the rain... lolz.. think i'll get some sleep when pat and phil leave later at 10am... so got 4hrs to chiong maple... haven really started my studying for mwsm yet... think i'll start on friday... feel lyk going to find dear later... miss her... ju's nick on msn jus now was 'i jus wan u for the rest of my life'.. kinda sweet.. if dear said dat to me.. wow.. haha.. oh well.. but she did say im hers.. ;p dun mind me... think its the lack of sleep and all the sugar from the ice milo getting to my head.. haha.. ok den.. maple time.. mayb i'll b able to lvl up since its 6am and dere isnt much ppl in there rite now...lolz... JoaC5teR out~

Lonely~

2005-09-01T19:04:00.000+08:00

jus came home from sending dear and yun to kallang.. they're at the indoor stadium watching the finals of project superstar.. and well.. im left alone.. lolz.. oh well.. gonna b a lonely nite.. mayb join jeremy for dod later or smthing to kill some time while waiting for dear to get home.. dunno bah.. see how.. lolx.. sianzzz... went to register for my final theory test jus now b4 sending dear and yun off... gtg carry fans for my mom now... she brought 2 fans home and she needs help carrying them outta the car... speaking abt car.. mum's new nissan latio coming next week.. confirmed le.. ok la.. gtg.. mayb blog again later..

cmsk

2005-08-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

oh man... things jus keep getting worse... now i've gotta do my cmsk presentation for competition on my own!!! mel got major project presentation and i gotta present solo to the course manager and god noes who else!!! omg!!! i think 2nite i cant sleep le!! suddenly feel so stressed and anxious!!! ahhhhhhhhhh!!!

MP ah MP....

2005-08-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

MP ah MP... haiz... junyan was saying he was worried about major project... it didnt really affect me much until i really sat down and started thinking abt... evaluation's tml and seriously... im scared... scared im gonna fail.... how how how... Zzzzzzzzz.. past week weeks benny chin has suddenly been so nice to us.... mayb its cos hes gonna fail us already dats y... haiyoh!! now so many things running thru my mind... Zzzzzzzz.. oh yeah... my mum's new car coming next week... 3 numbers only... kinda cool... but how 2 buy 4D...? Zzzzzzzzzz.. haiyah!!! MP ah MP.... if i fail my MP.. means i stay back in TP another sem.. Zzzzzz.. den leddat... aaneh even worse sia.... stay back 3 sems... omg.... freak... im thinking too much.... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... hope can pass.... i always said i'd make the impossible possible... mayb heres another test for me to overcome.... hopefully...

Happy 6th Month~!!

2005-08-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

well.. wad can i say.. its been 6 months.. plenty of ups and plenty of downs.. yet here we are.. still 2gether.. side by side.. jus wanted to come in and say how thankful i am and how much i love my dearest.. she might be one person to the world but to me she IS the world.. a million thank yous for everything.. and heres to many more months to come.. cheers darling~! and once again.. happy 6th month~!! WeEeEeEe~!!

dilemma

2005-08-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

2 more days and i'll be celebrating my 6th month with dear.. wanna get her smthing but i have no clue wad to get for her.. was thinking of getting her a jacket cos she wants one but.... i dunno which one to buy... mayb i'll go to adidas or nike and take a walk or smthing... i already noe her size anyway... its medium.. so... all i needa do is to go hunt for it... or mayb i culd get her a new pair of slippers!!! y didnt i think of dat earlier!?!?! here i am thinking of wad to get for her and suddenly it strikes me lyk getting hit by a ball.. i culd get her a new pair of slippers!! since the one shes using now has already worn out.. the base i mean.. so when it rains.. she slips all over the place.. lolz.. alrite.. so now i got 2 items.. hmmmmz.. okie... and her feet are size 8... wahahaha.. cool~ alrite den... back to work... came in to blog cos im waiting for the powerpoint slides to finish transferring to dear.. so i can go continue working on them... alrite den... blog again soon~

goal~!!!

2005-08-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

GOAL~!!!! had a soccer match today... scored my 2nd goal for the team... left foot strike to the bottom right corner.. muahahahaha!! nothing much happened la... dat was the only highlight of the day i guess... yeah... well.. cmsk presentation tml... lazy to type out my script so... think i'll jus memorize it... and go with the flow during the whole presentation and speak wadeva comes to my mind.. hehe.. wish me luck~

untitled

2005-08-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

had a huge arguement with my dad jus now.. freaking funny.. twisted his words upside down until he had nothing to say.. whahaha.. on top of dat.. even my mum was laughing at him... lmao.. cool... felt real nice to answer him back.. haha.. i noe it sounds kinda evil but wad the heck.. lolz.. he didnt wanna admit he was partly in the wrong.. anyway.. congrats to kelvin on winning project superstar.. respect man~!! i mean.. he may b blind.. but to even take part in the competition in the 1st place.. sure speaks alot abt his courage and character.. well.. gd for u man.. gd for u.. wow... 1am already... think i'll go bathe and sleep.. gotta meet dear for breakfast and go to nokia to fix my dad's problem.. haha.. lame..

phew~

2005-08-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

phew~!! hard work~!! jus finished writing the script for cmsk presentation for dear and myself.. den did the coding for my alertGUI for my major project.. jus sent it to junyan for testing.. hope it works the 1st time.. *crosses fingers.. busy busy busy~!! soccer competition in exactly a week.. next sunday.. getting a lil bit of cold feet.. so long neva play keeper le.. dunno if can or not.. lolz.. old den no more agile.. Zzzzzzzzzz.. curses to the ppl who invented projects and books and studies.. lolz.. ccn day on friday~!! we're selling hot doggies~!! den i'll b doing wad i did last year again.. squeezing the mustard, chilli and ketchup on the hotdogs.. lolz.. next time if cannot find job can sell hot dogs sia.. squeeze until pro le.. lolz.. okie.. back to work bah.. hehe.. came in blog blog awhile.. so long neva blog.. cyaz~!! oh.. dear ah.. happy belated 5th month.. didnt get to add it in here.. but betta late than neva.. and happy belated birthday to jeremy~!

it was supposed to b a happy day.....

2005-07-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

it was supposed to be a happy day..... went to funan to try out contact lenses... spent lyk 45mins trying to put dem in and abt an hour trying to take dem out at the optical shop.... the daily lenses too slippery for me... the monthly ones easier to handle... culd put them in and remove dem in one try... anyway... decided on the monthly lenses... will make dem during my skool hols bah... den can slowly get used to dem... scratched my left eye tho... while trying to take the lense out.. whole left eye was red after dat... still hurts lyk hell now... made a new pair of specs also.... cost $220 sia... frameless... blue.. reminds me of the sunglasses racheal uses in her friendster pic... well... i was happy... until i got a call from my dad saying dat my grandma passed away... so went to the hospital to see her... when i was dere... i didnt feel sad or anything... i jus felt sorry for the ppl around me crying... anyway went dere also lyk as gd as not going... everyone ignore me... smile at dem also dey neva respond... nvm... the best part is.. i found out dat b4 she even died all her children were buying 4D... so filial sia... including my dad lor... den when dey didnt win dey were complaining.... my heart really sank when i heard dat lor... its lyk so damn bloody bad... ppl haven die u go buy 4D of all her IC numbers and wad other numbers have u.. nvm... den when dun win.. complain... screwed up lor... haiz.... dunno wad to say.... now i gotta attend the funerals til thursday... go dere sit alone in one corner... no one will talk to me also... alienated... haiz... wad to do.... bo pian also mus go show face... think i shld go get some sleep le... den wun think so much...

Unfair.........

2005-07-14T09:35:00.000+08:00

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz... damn unfair... mer's group gets a 3650 to do their project... and my group? 6210...... Zzzzzzzzzzz... stupid benny chin.. he should hav issued our equipment to us later.. idiot.. fat faggot... useless bum... fool of a took... so many problems becos of dat useless fat ass... anyhow scold ppl.... grrrrrrrrr... now thinking back on those incidents make me hate him even more.... jus wanted to come here complain abt benny... lolz...

mwsm... haiz...

2005-07-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

haiyah... freaking disappointed... the stupid mwsm paper... i looked at it and i was lyk... wth... dun understand wad dey asking.... fail liaoz lor.... everything also dunno.... freaking demoralising... haiz... tml got class chalet... ron gonna chu pattern and ask shereen to b his gf... gd luck 2 him... damn tired... hurt my leg 2dae... thigh strain... haiz... getting old le... ache here ache dere... sigh... useless... 1 damn paper also can study until gonna fail... haiz... sianzzations... wish dear culd jus giv me a hug and a kiss now... feeling kinda down... mayb partly cos im tired also... dunno bah... think i go sleep le... play maple another day... til the next post...

its been awhile~

2005-06-27T08:15:00.000+08:00

so its been awhile since i last blogged.. well.. been busy.. i guess.. with skool.. and maple story.. lolz.. suddenly addicted to it once again.. all thx to mel.. =p anyway.. in skool now.. came early to print stuff.. so since got nothing to do come in blog awhile.. term test's next week.. but thankfully only 1 paper la.. 1st time sia.. den my napfa's the week after dat.. should b able to pass la.. if not i'll end up lyk justin.. he going in tekong in lyk.. 12 days? lolz.. cos he failed his napfa.. aiyah.. the basketball court at my house dere cannot play soccer le.. stupid town council put up the sign.. mus b the stupid neighbour of mine la.. everytime call police de.. next time see her son playing basketball i aim his ball for tampines sec.. c-bong.. lolz.. hmmm.. wad else is dere.. oh yes.. happy 4th month dear.. its abit late to add in the blog now la.. 2 days late to b exact.. but betta late than neva.. hehe.. ok la.. i go check my mail and all le.. blog next time..

cramp-ster~!!!

2005-06-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

lolz.. i had a weird dream last nite.. i dreamt i was out at nite with mer, yizhu, yc and sam at some ulu shopping centre.. den yc broke into a shop and mer followed him into the shop and the next thing dat happened, dis policeman was chasing after us!! haha.. den he caught mer and handcuffed her left wrist and she was struggling cos he wanted to handcuff her other hand as well.. so i got in between mer and the policeman and tried to sort things out.. i was lyk 'officer pls hold on 4 awhile im her bf.. culd u pls tell me wad happened?' and the policeman socked me in the chest! hahaha.. i woke up after i got punched, mumbled 'mata pah wa..' ( policeman beat me ) and went back to sleep.. haha.. well.. played badminton with the class 2dae.. den did pull-ups with the guys.. den ran 4 rounds arnd the skool track and did more pull ups.. i always laugh at mer when her toe cramps.. dis time my own toes on my left foot cramped up! and b4 the pain culd go away my left thigh cramped! and i was rolling on the ground in pain but it was damn funny la.. haha.. den immediately after dat my calf muscle cramped as well followed by the bottom of my foot! lyk damn dumb lor! my whole left leg cramped up! hahaha.. anyway.. dats abt all la.. oh ya.. stupid benny chin made us wait 2dae.. meeting at 9am and he didnt turn up.. waited 4 him until 930 den when we left the lab he called us to tell us dat meeting wuld b re-scheduled to 1050.. den 1050 we reach the lab he was nowhere in sight.. and he came at 11.. idiot lor.. ownself late by so much!! den dat time i was 3 minutes late nia he kaopei with me.. c-bong.. lolz.. anyway.. til the next post! i go install gta san andreas le.. hehe.. dear ah.. if ur reading dis.. i love u.. ;) dun forget k? no matter how many guys stare at u and fall into the drain.. LMAO!!

chicken heaven~~!!

2005-06-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

heaven~!! im in heaven~!! chicken heaven~~!! dinner was neva so good.. everywhere i looked.. chicken chicken and more chicken!!! curry chicken and ginger chicken soup~!! thinking abt it jus makes my mouth water again now.. oh man.. the curry, chicken and potatoes neva tasted so good b4.. think it was the best ive eva eaten so far lor~!! homemade somemore~!! hopefully my aunt will cook dat more often~!! and the ginger chicken soup~!! oh man.... sedap.. shiok.. anyway.. kinda aching all over from yrstrday's activities.. hurts lyk hell.. went to watch mr and mrs smith 2dae with mer.. after watching the show i guess ive come 2 realise smthing.. to jus take wadeva life throws at u in ur stride and b happy with wad life has given u.. at least i dun hav a gf dats trying to kill me or smthing lyk in the case of mr and mrs smith.. lolz.. ;p yeah.. alrite den.. gonna go update my ipod and take a bath.. til the next post den~!!

tired day~!

2005-06-08T21:47:00.000+08:00

went for the soccer trials for the skool team 2dae.. decided to play goalkeeper as dere was only 3 ppl in total competiting for dat spot.. me and another chinese guy and a malay guy.. damn tired now cos i played the whole trial.. 7 matches straight and the best part is i wasnt selected.. haha.. but its ok la.. at least i didnt conceed any goals at all in those 2 hours.. but it was fun.. made a couple of good saves dat even some of my different teammates.. ppl i didnt noe.. were praising me.. haha.. in the end the malay guy got selected.. not surprising as well la.. dat the other chinese guy and me werent selected.. and congratulations to sam~!!! he managed to get into the skool team~!!! well done sam~!!! so i guess dis means the moranges team will b expecting a betta performance for every match from u starting today.. a big thank u to everyone who came and supported me and sam during the trials~!! so sorry i let u guys down by not getting in.. but its alrite.. i had fun.. didnt conceed any.. and played 7 matches in a row.. considering dat i havent played goalkeeper in dunno how many donkey years.. im happy with my performance.. :D alrite den.. gonna go do my work.. til the next post den~!

wads with dis world?!!?

2005-06-07T10:59:00.000+08:00

oh my god!!! its been an hr since i left home.. and in dat hour i've already seen 5 butches!!! 5 sia!!! wtfffffff!! its lyk a disease!! dats spreading and infecting the minds of girls turning dem into ugly male-like creatures whose only purpose is to get a girl.. dat is so sick man.. mayb in another life i WULD hav stopped to pray for these unfortunate souls but den again.. mayb not la.. muahahahahahaha...

stupid comp

2005-06-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

eh!!! blogger in chinese still!! on my comp at least!! liao la!! how to read?!?!? LOLz!!!! came across dis personal message from yenchern.. tot i'd put it down.. LOLz..

Girlfriend-A Highly Sophisticated & Volatile Product W/o Warranty & Customer Care Support & High Maintainence Fee

Zzzzzz

2005-06-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

getting kinda tired of blogging.. mayb cos i dun really noe wad 2 blog abt.. since skool started everyday's been pretty much the same.. go skool, send mer home, come home.. no life sia.. lolz.. somemore now pat having SIP in tanjong pagar.. cant ask him go out play arnd if im bored.. haiz.. sianzz.. at home also nothing much 2 do.. no more games to play le.. all play until finish.. so only left day of defeat to train on.. cant play dota at home cos my warcraft dunno got wad prob with it.. sianzz.. sam still asking arnd if anyone's interested to play soccer tml.. but so far no response.. hope got soccer bah.. if not everyday i come home i jus sit in front of my comp and idle.. well.. dats my life nowadays..

i'm not me anymore

2005-05-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

been in a foul mood recently.. too many memories dat i hav 2 erase.. too many things on my mind.. too much anger and hatred bottled up long enuf.. i need 2 explode.. i need time.. alone.. a lot of time.. was talking to jess jus now.. deres dis irritating guy dat keeps telling her things lyk i love u and calling her sayang and honey.. wtf lor.. he doesnt even noe her well.. freaking desperado.. lyk honey so much go find pooh la.. freaking son of pooh.. pooh bor kia.. nb.. anyway.. got a match later in the afternoon.. against some bunch of chinese fckers.. vincent's brother and his frens.. if dey're skills are anything lyk vincent's.. den i dun understand y dey so damn hao lian.. if dey are indeed betta than us den i got nothing to say.. but until the final verdict is out.. i think dey're counting dey're eggs b4 dey hatch.. can say dun wan play with small kids somemore cos no kick.. cb the small kids on my team can lobang their ass upside down sia.. lets see how things go.. i need some target practice anyway.. need 2 vent out my anger and frustration..

Miss U Nights...

2005-05-28T15:31:00.000+08:00

I've had many times I can tell you
Times when innocence I'd trade for company
And children saw me crying
I thought I'd had my share of that
But these miss you nights are the longest

Midnight diamonds stud my heaven
Southward burning like the jewels that are your face
And the warm winds that embrace me
Just as surely kissed your face
Yet these miss you nights they're the longest

Lay down all thoughts of your surrender
It's only me who's killing time
Lay down all dreams and feelings once remembered
It's just the same this miss you game

Thinking of my going
How to cut the thread and leave it all behind
Looking windward for my comfort
I take each day as it arrives
But these miss you nights are the longest
But these miss you nights are the longest

Miss You Nights-Westlife

The Ghost Of U & Me..

2005-05-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

-BBMak

Champions~~

2005-05-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

and so it is.. liverpool!! the new champions of europe!!! and wad a high octane match it was dis morning!! i was on the edge of my seat!! muahahaha!! and my sway mouth really worked sia! i said serginho wuld blast the ball over during the penalty and he did!! wahahahahaha!! went 2 watch star wars episode 3 today.. so nice.. anyway.. was walking home from my aunt's house and dis particular song came into my mind.. so think i'll post it..

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to lastIf tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

touched by the hands of an angel..

2005-05-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

well.. i culdnt hav asked for a betta day 2dae.. my 3rd month with mel.. and it was.. unforgetable.. went out for dinner with her jus now.. had ajisen.. and she passed me dis lil tweety envelope.. so cute!! and the best part was i neva expected the contents!! inside was a v sweet letter and an extremely cute cross stitch of a boy and girl kissing! when i opened the envelope i was... stunned! cos its the 1st time anyones eva given me a cross stitch and... its soooooooooo cute!! omg i sound lyk a girl.. lolz.. im jus damn happy.. den after i sent mel home.. was walking at her house carpark and i dunno wad made me suddenly smile and look down on the ground and guess wad i found.. a $2 note!! lately i keep picking up money.. went to watch movie recently with pat also i found $2 on the floor.. anyway.. liverpool and ac milan match in awhile.. hope liverpool will win.. even if dey dun dey still can b proud of themselves for making it dis far.. b4 i end dis post.. dear if ur reading dis.. i love u.. with all my heart.. i'll neva b able 2 put into words how much i love u after wad u did now..

back to skool..

2005-05-24T20:06:00.000+08:00

so its back 2 skool.. 2 months of hols gone jus lyk dat.. but anyway.. my timetable's not dat bad.. wednesdays and fridays no classes.. signed up for the skool soccer team 2dae with sam.. dey probably call us up in awhile to tell us to attend the trials.. didnt do much in skool 2dae.. played cs and dod.. ketung-ded a few ppl including my dearest mel.. so sorry dear.. but u were on the opposition team and i had no choice! haha.. anyway.. tml's gonna b my 3rd month! muahahaha! but time seems to pass so slowly.. only 3 months but seems lyk i've been with mer for a year.. anyways.. happy 3rd month dear.. :) hope u'll eat more and grow fatter.. ooops.. =X *acts innocent* hehe.. i love u dear.. ;)

2005-05-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

Masterpiece by Le~kEtUnG~JoaC5teR

MiLyKdOg

lalalala..~~

2005-05-19T16:31:00.000+08:00

checked my timetable jus now.. turns out im in the same class as mel again.. haha.. from the 1st day of poly life until the last year we've been in the same class.. sam says its fated dat we end up 2gether.. lolz.. came back from the chalet yrstrday.. got 2 spend time with mel.. den she so cute.. the mirror in the toilet was fogged up after she took her bath den she went to draw on it.. so old already still draw.. so cute sia.. lolz.. anyway.. my fyp project group's not so bad.. im with aanesh and junyan.. we're supposed to do on some wireless reminder alert thingy.. dunno wad is dat also la.. man.. time really flies sia.. 2 months of holiday coming to an end already.. b4 i noe it i'll b going to ns.. no0o0o0o0o0o0o0o!! anyway.. prob gonna watch star wars revenge of the sith tml or smthing.. cant wait!! ahhhhhhh!!! haha.. too bad mel dun wanna go.. not her kinda show.. so guess i'll go with pat and co la.. den mel so cute! watch the amityville horror with her she kept twitching!! so funny!! lolz.. alrite alrite.. i gonna go play dod for awhile.. waiting for pat 2 reach my place for soccer.. and as usual.. he's late.. ciaoz..

finally found wad i've been looking for..

2005-05-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

omg.. blogger now in chinese sia.. which prob means im gonna b blogging less? dunno la.. dunno how 2 read the damn words.. after so much searching i finally found wad i wanted to buy for mel.. hope she lyks it la.. kinda in a weird mood now.. no mood for anything.. mayb its cos i haven seen mel for... more than a week... mayb miss her until i got no mood for anything... i dunno.. tired to play dod jus now but culdnt concentrate... haiz... tot by blogging i culd get dis weight off my shoulders... but now dat im here... i dunno wad 2 blog abt... damn dumb sia.... freaking pathetic.... think i'll blog again another day la.... was so looking forward to the chalet on monday... but now i jus feel lyk going dere to prepare everything and jus leave for the beach to watch the sunset alone... jus sit dere and stone or smthing... stare at the horizon... jus wish i culd float away from everything... to where deres a swift sunrise over golden shores and acres of green beyond....

dod humiliation!!

2005-05-10T20:08:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10 today.. went for breakfast with pat and daph.. after dat we went 2 billy bombers 4 a milkshake.. drank a banana shake.. damn sweet but damn nice.. the banana taste was damn rich!! so we sat dere drinking and talking until abt 1 plus.. den we went to look for videos to rent at laser fair.. rented the eye 2 and some show called kumar and harold go to white castle.. damn lame show but funny la.. play dod after dey left.. damn funny sia playing in the hong kong server.. the ppl dere all so noob.. can bully.. i was hiding behind dis doorway cos i heard footsteps at the other side.. den dis guy walked thru & i smacked him on the head with the butt of my garand.. and if dat wasnt humiliating enuf, he came back to the same spot after he respawned and threw a grenade thru the doorway where i was hiding.. so i ran to the grenade, picked it up and tossed it back out of the doorway and boom!! i killed him with his own grenade!! dats lyk freaking humiliating lor!! it only happens lyk.. once in a blue moon in dod.. and it happened to me.. wahahahaha.. so happy gaming.. hehe.. oh yeah.. bumped into audrey 2dae.. shes getting more petite by the day sia!! i swear!! lolz.. oh man.. suddenly forgot how 2 blow bubble gum again.. lolz.. nvm.. i'll remember it sooner or later..

tomorrow.. a betta day..?

2005-05-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

well... the days seem 2 b getting more crappy for me lately... been getting scolding from my parents and last nite, my grandfather actually had the cheek 2 scold me..! him! dat old s.o.b who's so damn bloody lazy 2 do anything actually scolded me!! cos i was watching the chronicles of riddick on my comp with my headphones on.. den my idiot of a grandpa asked me abt his house keys cos he culdnt find dem.. my mum took dem away from him cos he's so idiotic dat he comes and goes from home w/o even locking the door and the gate.. dumb p.o.s.. so obviously i culdnt hear him with my headphones on... all of a sudden he came beside me & he scolded me & called me a mute.. i was lyk wth sia!! so i took off my headphones and he scolded me.. and i yelled "u cannot see wad is dis is it? stupid!" and i show my headphones 2 him.. den he raised his fist so i went "u wan2 beat me is it?" den he was lyk "of cos la!".. throughtout dis whole commotion, my mum was in the living room and she didnt even come to see wad was going on lor! she didnt even bother until my dad told her dat my grandpa was scolding me.. only den did she come to take a look and by den i already stood up from my chair.. den instead of finding out wad happened she scolded me straight.. she said im a gangster.. i was lyk wtf lor!! ppl wan 2 beat me of cos i stand up la! den wad? sit down let ppl beat ah? damn retarded lor!! den kenna scold by my mum.. den dat f*cker of a grandpa who was going up the stairs stopped to join in also lor!! think wad? scold ppl free ah!! join in leddat.. c-bong.. i told my mum already when he and my uncle paul die i'll b the only person smiling at their funerals.. cant wait til dat day sia.. instead of sprinkling holy water on the coffins lyk the tradition normally is i'm gonna shock everyone by spitting sia.. nb c-bong.. dats y i cant wait til the chalet on the 16th and 17th.. can finally get away from my damn family once again.. saw mel's nick jus now and i think it kinda applies to my life lor.. it was 'start by being thankful. be happy with wad u hav now, and more will come ur way..' its lyk soooooooo relevant lor.. im so thankful rite now cos my parents arent home lor.. im happy with wad i hav now.. i hav peace now cos deres nobody to scold me for stupid shit things.. and more will come my way.. more scolding coming my way lor.. somemore last nite mel suddenly angry with me.. dunno for wad also.. ask her she dun wan tell me.. she say nothing.. wth.. den she ownself tell jas dat shes angry with me den when i ask her she tell me nothing.. women.. haiz.. cant stand dem and cant live w/o dem..

some things dun change...

2005-05-08T02:21:00.000+08:00

well.. lyk my title says.. some things jus dun change... basically got scolding the whole day la.. from both my parents.. our plasma tv came 2dae... the poor delivery guys... dey had 2 keep going back and forth from their warehouse cos dey delivered 2 tv's and both were faulty.. dunno abt the 3rd one tho... cos i left home for pat's house to help him fix his comp.. and i was hoping so much dat by doing dat i culd escape all the scolding and nagging but no0o0o0o0o0o.. how wrong i was.. mum called me on my mobile and i had a fight with her over the fone.. so freaking irritating... managed to play day of defeat with pat for awhile jus now.. my dad's been bugging me the whole day abt me not buying anything for mother's day... freak la i dunno wad in the damn bloody world to buy rite so stop bugging me and lemme think la.. nb c-bong.. whole day keep saying i neva buy anything.. neva buy den my prob la.. for wad keep on nagging.. lyk he nag le i will gain enlightenment and noe wad 2 buy.. anyway.. started a petition jus now for the bus fares of poly students and the issue abt increasing bus fares.. hopefully dis time smthing gets done abt it.. haiz... my left jaw hurts.. cos last nite mel bumped her head into my cheekbone.. so it hurts wheneva i gotta move my mouth.. sianzzz.. justin playing soccer in the morning tml... mayb i'll go for mass later and play soccer... if i do dat it'd probably mean dat i wun b joining my mum and dad for mother's day lunch.. but im lyk wad the heck anyway.. i cant really b bothered much lor.. i mean.. my damn grandfather's the bloody cause of all the stress for my parents.. bloody irritating ass.. and my parents are venting out their frustrations on me... chow c-bong lor... fed up.. anyway... think im gonna go sleep now la.. hopefully dear doesnt hav a concussion or smthing... she hit her head quite hard.. so poor thing... anyway... til the next post... frustrated... peace out...

sleepy...

2005-05-05T17:52:00.000+08:00

yes ah!! my sway mouth is back again!! predicted dat liverpool and psv wuld win the previous 2 matches and dey did!! wasted neva bet.. haiz.. anyway.. woke up at 630am 2dae to go to church for mass.. which lasted for only half an hr sia!! fastest mass i hav eva attended!! went over to mel's house after dat with breakfast.. saw her 'jus wake up' look.. so funny!! went to watch house of wax after dat.. not bad the show.. jus kinda gruesome at times.. was looking at gundam models jus now.. the more i look at dem the more tempted i am to buy the aile strike gundam to fix.. ahhhhhhhh!! tml most likely going to costa sands to book chalet for my someone.. *hint hint*.. and dis jas ah.. wah.. got guy go her house at 2am lor!! with fireworks!! wahahahaha!! somemore got a bottle of stars and letter wor..!! LOLz!! jas ah jas.. opportunities only knock once at ur door hor.. if u dun open it u might miss it.. but den again if opportunities dun knock.. den jus build another door la.. muahahahaha!!!

mayb it wasnt such a bad day afterall..

2005-05-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

wooh.. jus came home.. well.. mel surprised me jus now in the evening.. she came over to my house to give me a ring.. but.. it culdnt fit.. too small.. awwww.. hehe.. almost dere darling.. sorry 2 spoil ur plan.. ;p hehe.. anyway.. she went 2 change the size after dat.. went to delifrance after dinner 2 buy tarts for her.. no way im gonna let her out-do me in surprises! hehe.. den dropped by her house and knocked on her door to giv her the tarts.. her voice was so funny when i spoke 2 her on the phone! sounded so panicky.. so cute!! haha.. den went to orange julius to get some hotdogs for 2nite's game.. and ntuc for chips and root beer.. so yup.. im home now.. walked past 3 funerals 2dae.. sad.. prayed for each person when i walked past.. hopefully dey are at peace and in a place dat dey will b happy and their souls can rest.. :) so yeah.. til the next post.. thanxx for the surprise darling!! really means alot 2 me.. :D

woke up on the wrong side of bed..

2005-05-03T13:40:00.000+08:00

well.. lyk the title says.. woke up on the wrong side of bed.. got woken up every hour for 5hrs last nite.. rite now im looking at the computer screen and my head's spinning and my vision's blurring a lil bit.. mayb its high blood pressure? haha.. or mayb all the heading of soccer balls hav finally taken its toll on me.. mayb a concussion.. mayb not.. but wth.. who cares.. well.. kinda found out smthing abt one of my frens.. and once again.. u disappoint me fren.. u fucking disappoint me.. tsk tsk tsk.. dun get me wrong.. im thru getting angry at u.. but on 2nd tot.. i culd always continue the way i am and save up on the rage building.. and wait.. for dat perfect opportunity.. all i need is 1 soccer match.. and i'll go all gung ho.. yeah.. i think dat'll b kinda fun.. so heres to u.. my "fren".. hope ur happy now.. hope u feel betta abt urself.. thanxx for all the lies and thinking i was a stupid fool.. but unfortunately.. ur the bigger fool.. the song's for u "fren".. my perfect enemy.. enjoy..

"Dead as dead can be".. my doctor tells me
But I just cant believe him..
ever the optimistic one..
I'm sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy..

Wake up and face me..
don't play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say.. "You disappoint me"
Maybe you're better off this way

Leaning over you here.. cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become.. my perfect enemy..

Wake up and face me..
Don't play dead Cause maybe
Someday I'll walk away and say.. "You disappoint me"
Maybe you're better off this way
Maybe you're better off this way
Maybe you're better off..

Wake up and face me..
Don't play dead Cause maybe..
Someday I'll walk away and say.. "You fucking disappoint me!"
Maybe you're better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!
Passive aggressive bullshit..

-'Passive' by A Perfect Circle

mothers.. unreasonable.. irritating..

2005-04-30T21:36:00.000+08:00

well.. 2dae kinda sucked.. went to daph's house to help repair her comp.. den my mum called me when i was fixing her comp halfway to ask where i was cos she called home and no one answered.. so i told her i was at daph's house fixing her comp and my mum started getting annoying.. cos she asked me if i wanted to go with her 2 her office dis morning 2 help her pack up some stuff.. and obviously i didnt go la.. cos i already told daph i wuld fix her comp.. so my mum said dat im a very disappointing and useless son cos i'd rather help my fren than help my own mother.. i was lyk daph asked me yrstrday lor!! u ask me dis morning i already said cannot! got so fed up with her.. den she asked me if i wanted lunch and i was already so pissed already dat i jus said i'll eat lunch myself and hung up the fone.. so im disappointing and useless cos i didnt cancel my appointment with daph to fix her comp & help my mum.. not bad.. now i noe wad my mum thinks of me.. wth.. useless useless lor.. next time she ask me do things i dun bother le.. so much for parents being reasonable and understanding.. wad a bunch of bull.. pek chek.. dats kinda y i hate staying at home.. stay at home listen to her nag and grumble abt god noes wad.. anyway.. francis jus msged me on msn saying his hp got stolen during soccer and he suspects sayo.. haiz.. jus when i tot sayo was kinda alrite as compared 2 the other muhds dat play soccer at the basketball court.. guess muhds will always b muhds huh.. no offence to dan if u read dis.. ur a different type as compared to those typical backstabbing muhds.. lyk i was telling dan yrstrday.. doesnt mean sayo now friendly with me i wun ram the ball at him.. guess in the end nothings changed.. lolz.. think i'll b ramming the ball more often now.. time 2 start again.. til the next post..

food glorious food..

2005-04-30T02:02:00.000+08:00

well.. as the title says.. the whole day was abt food.. woke up at 11 plus.. den went to sakae sushi with dan, pat and daph for brunch and dinner.. haha.. i think if the restaurant gets ppl lyk us everyday dey'll go bankrupt sia.. lolz.. we ate alot.. and i really mean ALOT.. lolz.. went for a movie after dat.. infection.. damn stupid show.. tot it'd b nice.. cos japanese horror shows are normally quite good.. normally la.. guess dis made infection an abnormal show.. cos it sucked real bad.. went 2 mel mel's house after dat at around 10 plus.. sat at her staircase and talked until.. well.. 130.. lolz.. kinda jus got home.. so yeah.. gonna go sleep soon.. been quite a good day.. :) probably going daph's house later to help repair her comp.. so yup.. til the next post.. ;)

happy 2nd month.. altho the post's a lil late..

2005-04-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

well.. happy 2nd month to me and melissa.. well.. the post's 2 days late.. haha.. been a great week so far.. celebrated our 2nd month on monday.. which was great.. went 2 bugis dat day.. watched sahara.. now i noe y couples lyk 2 go bugis watch movie and do funny things.. the cinema so ulu lor! lolz.. nothing much happened yrstrday.. played soccer in the evening for awhile.. den went to m1 with my dad to get my NEW PHONE!! wahahahaha!! got a nokia 6260.. as for 2dae.. nothing much also la.. went to skool in the evening to pick mel up and send her home.. probably gonna meet pat later for coffee at starbucks cos hes gonna b staying over at my place 2nite for soccer.. liverpool and chelsea.. hope liverpool can win.. den can kajiao sam.. anyway.. got a match coming up on monday.. kinda pissed at a few ppl in the team over the last match we had.. no sportsmanship.. cos dey left at half time cos the team was losing.. giving the excuse dat they had smthing on.. den when the match was over 1 of dem actually came back 2 see wad the score was.. i was lyk.. wtf lor! dey ashamed to lose sia! even man utd and real madrid lose b4 lor.. cb.. den during the match ask ppl help to defend all dun wan.. and i was left all alone to defend.. idiotic teammates.. might as well dun play when u dun wan 2 listen to the freaking captain.. still deciding whether to play or not on monday.. will discuss with pat later over coffee.. haiz.. well.. i guess dats all.. til the next post..

sunburnt...

2005-04-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

guess whos black.. black again.. haiyoh.. kenna sunburnt until freaking jia lad.. my face pain lyk hell.. lolz.. went to tm for lunch with pat after soccer yrstrday.. den i saw dis guy.. abt sec 3.. he threw something from the 3rd floor of tm down into the crowd.. den when he saw me staring at him he smiled at me and ran off into courts.. so freaking childish lor.. and not lyk as if the thing he threw was paper or smthing.. it landed quite loudly on the ground below lor.. luckily it didnt hit anyone.. pat saw me staring at him and asked me wad happened and i said wad he did out damn loud to make him paiseh.. den dat guys 2 frens kept staring at me after dat.. wanna find trouble ah.. lai ah.. lolz.. scared dem ah.. freaking childish ppl.. after i said dat dey were freaking childish for throwing stuff down dey stopped staring and looked away.. den went lan gaming with pat, phil and waiwai at nite.. pity the ppl dat played team fortress with us sia.. kenna owned by us upside down.. pat kept using the medic to infect dem and i kept owning the opposition snipers.. lolz.. not 1 but 3 snipers!! wahahaha.. guess the sniper trainings in the US servers really paid off sia.. the poor guys.. roflmao.. was playing day of defeat jus now.. went on a knife poking spree for one of the rounds.. killed 3 guys with my knife b4 being shot by the enemy.. lolz.. so fun.. im gonna die of heart failure soon man.. had abt 10 eggs yrstrday.. lolz.. breakfast was macs.. so 1 egg dere.. den lunch had mee rebus and kaya toast.. 3 eggs dere.. dinner had omelette rice.. at least another 3 eggs dere.. came home had supper.. steamed egg.. at least another 3 eggs dere.. so in total.. abt 10 eggs la.. lolz.. gonna die soon.. anyway.. 20mins more til jasmine's birthday so... happy birthday to u jas in advance.. may dis new chapter in ur life be filled with gd luck and happiness and a certain someone who might become a part of ur life.. ;p also.. 20 more mins to me and mel's 2nd month.. only 2 months sia.. and it feels lyk we've been 2gether for lyk.. 6 months.. mayb its cos i see her in skool everyday.. lolz.. so.. happy 2nd month dear.. hmmm.. got interview for OL in skool tml.. lazy go sia.. but wad the heck.. mel going so might as well go also.. ;p haha.. dunno where to go celebrate 2nd month sia.. mel lazy to think den ask me think.. think until sianzzz.. think so much.. hair gonna turn white and drop soon.. also dunno wad 2 buy for her.. was thinking of getting her a giant tweety.. but her bed so many stuffed toys le.. mus go think again.. more hair gonna drop.. lolz.. kidding.. ok la.. blog until dunno wad 2 say le.. will blog again when i think of smthing to say.. til the next time den..

Kryptonite...

2005-04-23T00:17:00.000+08:00

well.. lets see.. nothing much happened 2dae.. spent the morning gaming.. team fortress and day of defeat.. met pat for lunch at burger king at 11 plus.. dan joined us after dat.. den we went to the arcade 2gether.. played world combat and marvel vs capcom 2 for awhile.. kinda boring day.. went to sportslink after dat to look at boots.. pat bought a new pair of street soccer shoes.. total 90 III all silver version.. kinda cool.. wanted to get the same identical pair for field but the studs were kinda crappy.. hard rubber.. versatract studs.. prefer the intertract ones on my current pair now tho.. dey cut into the grass betta.. more smooth.. oh well.. still considering if i shld buy dat pair tho.. came home after dat.. pat came over also.. played day of defeat and team fortress again.. spent most of the time laughing at ppl dat i killed and the way i killed dem.. its amazing how stabbing someone with the bayonet on a kar98k tickles our funny bones.. lolz.. but its fun.. went out for dinner with pat again after dat.. had beef hor fun which tasted sour.. hopefully i dun fall sick tml.. got match.. well.. we're playing against a team we played b4.. the last time we met we lost 3-1.. hopefully tml.. it'll b a different scoreline.. sam asked me jus now if i got my lucky kiss from mel.. haha.. unfortunately.. i didnt.. but i did get into an arguement with her a couple of days ago so.. mayb dat means im gonna score? own goal dis time most likely.. haha.. my kryptonite.. my weakness.. but wadeva it is.. lucky kiss or no lucky kiss.. im jus gonna giv my best.. hopefully it'll b enuf to help the team secure a victory tml.. vode an! it means brothers all in ancient mandalorian btw.. so yeah.. til the next post.. ride 2gether, die 2gether, vode an..

sad sad story..

2005-04-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

well.. the past 2 days hav been quite terrible for me.. ended up hurting the one i care abt the most cos of my insensitivity.. i guess.. well.. in a way.. gd intentions dun always dun out the way u expect dem to be.. i guess i didnt wan2 share my problems with mel was cos i didnt wan it 2 affect her.. furthermore i didnt expect dat she wanted to share my probs.. guess its my fault cos i tot dis being her 1st relationship and all, she wuldnt exactly b prepared to share my burden.. i guess in a way i feel pressured to make dis relationship a gd one for her cos first relationships usually turn out bad for alot of ppl.. jus didnt wan her to go thru wad i went thru b4.. so yeah.. in a way.. im in the wrong to think she wuldnt b able to handle it.. looks lyk im the immature one afterall.. dats y i keep saying i suck at being a bf.. lolz.. hmmm.. oh well.. learn from my mistakes.. anyway.. got a match coming up on saturday.. been doing quite a fair bit of push ups lately to try to grow more muscles.. so i can start pushing ppl bigger than me arnd more on the soccer pitch.. lolz.. anyway.. think dats abt all i gotta say for 2dae.. so yeah.. til the next post.. im sorry dear.. pls forgive me..

New Design..

2005-04-18T02:50:00.000+08:00

hah.. i got a new blog design.. will be switching between dis black one and the previous white one every now and den.. see my mood la.. well.. i finally got me and mer's couple shirts.. bought a black man utd jersey for her and myself.. so yeah.. our couple shirt is a soccer jersey.. hmmm.. lyk so kuku.. anway.. went to play cs and tfc with pat, phil and waiwai jus now in the afternoon.. yrstrday afternoon.. pity the ppl dat played against us.. cos we owned dem hands down.. poor guys kept changing my cs name to things lyk 'i suck' and 'cheater' and stuff lyk dat.. lolz.. saddening.. oh yeah.. mer said she wun come to my funeral if i die b4 her.. so sad sia.. my own gf doesnt wanna see me 1 last time if i die.. tsk tsk tsk.. saddening again.. anyway.. its getting kinda late.. coming 3am soon so.. til the next post..

injured again.. wahahaha

2005-04-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

hah! i scored again 2dae!! well.. yrstrday more lyk it.. since its already past midnite.. 2 with the right foot and 1 with my left.. muahahaha.. been awhile since i scored with my left foot.. and its supposed to hav betta accuracy as compared to my right.. now both about the same.. jus dat the left one's lacking alot of power as compared to my right.. but.. 3 goals are 3 goals.. and im not complaining.. fell down again.. got tripped from behind by some chinky chonk.. hurt my other elbow.. now both my arms injured!! wahahahaha!! roflmao.. anyway.. pat and all most likely coming over to stay on wednesday.. gonna watch the liverpool and juventus match.. den mayb vcds after dat.. will b going cycling in the day on wednesday.. gonna go hunt 4 jasmine's creature over at the bike park at tampines.. the last time my gang of brothers went dere.. danial saw a woman in white sitting on one of the trees.. lolz.. somemore in the day sia!! wtfook!! lolz.. now my hair standing.. haha.. wonder wads gonna happen 2 us dis time.. anyway.. gonna go sleep soon.. going shopping with my dear later.. at orchard i think.. bugis if it rains.. looking at the weather the past few days.. hmmm.. think it'll rain again tml la.. lolz..rain rain come again.. go away another day.. alrite den.. off to bed.. gdnite and peace out!!

wad a week...

2005-04-11T15:08:00.000+08:00

im back again.. hehe.. wad a week man.. so many things happened.. had class chalet.. which was so fun.. got 2 hug mer 2 sleep.. :D my last day of work was damn funny sia.. nearly broke 2 juice glasses.. caught one with my leg.. not bad ah.. the soccer freestyle tricks really came in handy.. haha.. caught the glass with the inside of my knee.. played soccer yrstrday evening for awhile.. slipped and hurt my elbow quite bad.. haha.. but my dad won 4d!! second prize somemore!! shiok sia.. den he brought us to east coast eat.. somemore the nite b4 was my grandma's birthday.. so the weekend dat jus passed.. wooh.. all good food sia.. lolz.. shld hav asked mer to go.. ;p had quite alot 2 blog abt but forgot le.. jus remember the summary of stuff dat happened.. dats all.. other than dat.. nothing much la.. ;p oh yah.. sunday was the 1st day mer eva said she missed me thru sms.. lolz.. leddat also can sia.. i kuku already.. alrite.. gotta go bandage my arm up.. its dripping some yellowish liquid and blood again.. irritating.. lolz..

1st day of work...

2005-04-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

so its the 1st day of work... was kinda fun la overall.. minus the part where i slept for only 2hrs last nite.. went 2 bed at 12 last nite but kept tossing and turning and finally fell asleep at arnd 2 plus.. woke up at 415 and culdnt go back 2 bed so.. took my time 2 get ready and eat breakfast and read the papers b4 leaving for conrad hotel at 545.. so basically i work in a pool house.. clear plates.. serve ppl.. stuff lyk dat.. so yeah.. kinda tired.. but the ppl dere are great.. friendly and helpful.. mayb its cos its my 1st day dere.. lolz.. took a 10min nap jus now when i came home.. super duper tired.. miss mer's hugs and kisses.. cant wait til the last day of work on sunday man.. until den.. im gonna b so freaking tired.. mer says im a panda le.. cos of eyebags.. man.. panda.. mus b quite bad den.. gonna go pack my stuff 4 tml now i guess.. den gonna take a bath and off 2 bed.. lolz.. i dun think im even making any sense.. i love u dear.. cya soon.. *hugzz* *muuaaks*

the eye 10.. comedy..

2005-04-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

jus came home from watching the eye 10.. freaking funny sia... had a real good laugh.. and now sam msging me cos i sabohed him 2dae.. and yes.. dat person lyks him.. so.. good 4 u sam!! hope 2 see u and her 2gether soon.. dun hum jing peng so much.. roflmao!!!! anyway.. soccer 2dae was damn tiring.. drew 3-3 with the team we played with last week.. my left knee's getting pretty screwed up.. woke up dis morning and my left leg was kinda numb.. so yeah.. pat says its the symptoms of ageing.. no0o0o0o0o.. we're growing old.. haha.. sam!! mai tu liao la!! go for it la!! i support u all the way brudder!! and its ok.. i noe ur happy.. no need act.. ur acting sux.. ;p haha.. so yeah.. gonna go 2 bed early 2nite la.. tired.. so til the next post.. gd luck sam!!

a day in my life...

2005-03-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

yeah well... think im going nuts staying at home... grandparents driving me crazy.. every morning i get woken up cos my mum and aunt are yelling at my stupid grandpa cos hes being a pain in the neck.. hes so lazy dat he doesnt even change his clothes and bathe or take his shoes out when he comes home.. he jus walks arnd the house in them... so yeah... kinda lacking on sleep a lil... den in the evenings when he comes home i gotta tell him stuff lyk take off ur shoes and all and he'll answer back and argue and stuff.. so yeah.. he's starting to get on my nerves alot nowadays.. freaking irritating... den at nite when i go over 2 my aunt's house 4 dinner.. well.. my grandma starts all her nonsense.. cursing and scolding ppl... kinda blew up jus now during dinner... yelled at her to shut up cos everything was pissing me off... and well... she didnt... so i went back home 2 grab my ipod... was blasting music for the rest of the time i spent dere... kinda glad i managed to get out of the house in the afternoon tho... went 2 pass a cd to mel... kinda happy dat i got 2 see her... even if it was jus for lyk... 2 minutes... so yeah.... think im gonna go to bed soon... gotta go down to golden mile complex tml to collect my pay for the stupid kyo sai kang dat i worked at on monday... which totally sucked... not worth the $35... so yeah... til the next post... and welcome to my life...

another goal.. haha..

2005-03-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

alrighty!! nothing much happened 2dae.. woke up at arnd 12 plus.. had lunch.. seasoned scallops.. oh man.. dey are delicious.. yum yum.. watched hellboy again after dat.. went over to my aunt's house to help her configure her wireless connection.. played soccer in the evening.. and i scored against sam's team!!!! wahahahahaha!! den dis chinky chonk kicked me in the legs during the game.. so i jus starred at him and cracked my neck and the next thing i noe he's apologising lyk crazy.. hahaha.. damn funny sia.. he looked so scared!! quite fun scaring ppl sia.. especially during soccer.. lolz.. mer will probably scold me upside down 4 dis so.. wun say anymore.. ;p haha.. well.. guess i'll b leaving on a jet plane afterall.. 13th april.. off i go.. australia.. haiz.. dun wanna go leh.. dun wanna leave.. dun wanna leave mer behind.. dun wanna leave singapore behind.. no0o0o0o0o0o0o0o!!!! i dun wanna go to australia!!!! i wanna remain in singapore!!!!!! no0o0o0o0o!! oh well... the tickets are booked.. everything's been planned.. alot of my relatives are also going so... think i shld go also la.. so many things 2 do now.. get my passport done.. apply visa.. buy my clothes for australia.. plan wad 2 bring dere.. busy busy busy.. haiz.. well.. until the next blog den.. dis entries' song's gonna b a long one..

~All my bags are packed.. I'm ready to go..I'm standin' here outside your door..I hate to wake you up to say goodbye.. But the dawn is breaking it's early morn.. My taxi's waiting he's blowing his horn.. Already I'm so lonesome I could die..

So kiss me and smile for me.. Tell me that you'll wait for me.. Hold me like you'll never let me go.. Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane.. I don't know when I'll be back again.. Oh babe I hate to go..

There's so many times I've let you down.. So many times I've played around.. I'll tell you now that they don't mean a thing.. Every place I go I'll think of you.. Every song I sing I'll sing for you.. When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring..

So kiss me and smile for me.. Tell me that you'll wait for me.. Hold me like you'll never let me go.. Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane.. I don't know when I'll be back again.. Oh babe I hate to go..

Now the time has come to leave you.. One more time let me kiss you.. Close your eyes and I'll be on my way.. Dream about the days to come.. When I won't have to leave alone.. About the times that I won't have to say...

Oh kiss me and smile for me.. Tell me that you'll wait for me.. Hold me like you'll never let me go.. Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane.. I don't know when I'll be back again.. Oh babe I hate to go.. And I'm leaving on a jet plane.. I don't know when I'll be back again.. Oh babe I hate to go..~

-'Leaving On A Jet Plane' by Chantal Kreviazuk

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melissa - my lucky darling :)

2005-03-26T14:42:00.000+08:00

jus came home from soccer.. super super tired.. but.. extremely happy.. cos i finally scored my 1st goal for team moranges!! wahahahahaha!! big thanxx to aloy for the corner and khairi for the lay off.. weeeeeeeeeeeee.. super happy.. neva expected her to wish me gd luck for the match so early in the morning.. surprised me sia.. lolz.. den she said she'd giv me hugs and kisses if i scored.. which i did.. muahahahahahahahaha!! dats another reason y im so happy as well.. ;p hahahaha.. hurt my wrist a lil bit cos i crashed into the fence.. culdnt brake in time when i was running.. and my groin hurts from the flying arnd the field.. but in any case.. doesnt matter la.. cos i got my 1st goal!!!!!! wahahahahaha.. hope deres more to come in the future.. :) cheers!!

hApPy BiRtHdAy dEaR & hApPy 1st mOnTh

2005-03-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

and yes! exams are over! and im back 2 blog once again! been damn busy lately.. stressed as well.. until got pimple outbreak sia.. always get outbreak when im stressed.. anyway.. operation berthdeihgerl and operation ceekretsirprise were quite a success.. almost everything went according to plan.. guess all the planning and worrying was kinda worth it.. hehe.. basically spent the day running arnd.. went down 2 mer's house to pass her present to her bro after exam so he could put it on her bed and she wuld find it when she got home.. met the rest of the class at suntec's country mana after dat.. had dinner dere.. halfway thru me, ron and yc left to go to the 'toilet' as planned and we went 2 swensens to collect mer's cake.. after dat we placed and lit the candles outside the restaurent b4 going in.. the restaurent manager not bad sia.. quite zhi dong.. cos when he saw us with the cake he came to tell me dat he prepared the birthday song for us already and he wuld wait 4 our que to play it.. so yeah.. he played the song and i brought the cake into the place as planned.. so yeah.. quite successful la.. got a kiss from mer when i sent her home.. lolz.. dats y now on cloud 9.. ;p thanxx to all the squads for a job well done.. the missions culdnt hav been successful w/o all of u.. and for the post birthday surprise.. yc and me will b working on a movie presentation to giv to mer and the rest.. so.. hope it turns out alrite.. *crosses fingers* anyway.. my soccer ban has been lifted!! wahahaha.. and jus in time too.. got a match on saturday at nyjc.. wonder if mer wuld go down support me and sam.. hmmmm.. dun think so la.. she so lazy piggy one.. lil piglet.. ;p anyway.. til the next post i guess.. happy birthday once again darling.. and happy 1st month.. i love u..

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hitch!!

2005-03-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

heya~!! listening to leaving on a jet plane by justin timberlake now.. hehe.. lets see.. oh yeah.. i was walking home last nite after sending mer home.. den i saw these 2 cats chasing 1 cat.. the next thing i noe i got free porn to watch.. lolz.. kinda.. cool? cos i've neva seen cats do dat b4.. so stopped to watch.. haha.. oh well.. anyway.. watched hitch with mer, yenchern, sam, yizhu and jayne jus now at century square.. nice show.. especially the part about the first kiss thing.. man.. i kinda dread my first kiss with mer if it eva happens.. i mean.. i'll probably end up lyk the albert guy in the movie.. partly shy partly dunno wad to do partly.. well.. i dunno.. mayb im thinking too much.. but in any case.. picked up a few pointers from the show dat i should look out for.. lyk when a girl jingles her keys.. dat kinda thing.. so guess i'll pay more attention to stuff lyk dat? lolz.. anyway.. gonna go check out some songs which my cousin transferred to my external hard disk.. mayb i'll find some nice ones for my ipod.. hehe.. so.. out! luv ya mer! dats if u even read my blog in the 1st place.. ;p hehe..

a new record..

2005-03-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

i got a new record.. for now it stands at 39 hours and 15 minutes without sleep.. by the time i shut down my comp and bathe and get into bed it'll prob be 130am.. meaning the record would be 40 and a half hours without sleep.. all thanks to my thumb drive dat got stolen yrstrday.. some ass stole it from my comp in the skool lab.. den had 2 stay up the whole nite to do my msde project from scratch.. thank gdness for my frens who helped me out and my dear and her constant nagging.. i admit.. all the naggings can b kinda irritating at times but looking back on all of dem.. dey were all probably for my own good.. so thanxx dear.. *hugzzz* anyway.. i jus completed star wars republic commando.. not bad huh.. finished the game in 2 days.. lolz.. and yes!!! projects are finally finally OVER!!!!!!! i feel lyk a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders lor.. listening to jay chou's yi fu zhi ming now.. kinda lyk dat song alot.. anyway.. jas keeps complaining my blog so girly.. cos its pink.. its not pink!! its.... light red? i dunno.. mayb im jus colour blind or smthing.. lolz.. dear's birthday coming up soon.. hope everything will go as planned.. ;) alrite alrite.. think i'll stop here.. starting to feel a headache coming.. oh.. 2dae wuld be me and mer's 2nd week 2gether.. lolz.. time sure flies man.. anyway.. i've been banned from soccer by her for the next 2 weeks.. cos i hurt my back last saturday.. haha.. but im recovered already.. but i'll listen 2 her la.. wait she get angry.. :p ok.. think i'll b cutting down on the songs posting.. running out of songs already.. so i'll jus end dis post by saying mer.. i love u.. :D

sianzzz..

2005-03-09T11:24:00.000+08:00

lolz.. in skool now.. 3d lab with mer.. got pretty much nothing to do la.. slacking around.. listening to my ipod now.. blind justice remix of daredevil's theme.. dunno wad to blog about also.. haha.. all the rest of the guys in mbdp lab slacking around also.. lyk no mood do work even tho got msde due later 2dae.. lolz.. think i've got abt 3/7 more to do.. wasted dis lab no rational rose software.. if not i think i would be doing project instead of blogging.. i think.. lolz.. jus looked at mer's 3d project.. its got smthing to do with an ant and a chip.. potato chip i think.. cannot make out from here also anyway.. all i see is dis yellow oval shaped thingy with a face and a hand on the left.. now shes moving the chip around.. the more i look at it the more it looks brown and not yellow.. think mayb i colour blind sia.. lolz.. ok la.. will check back later 2nite or smthing to continue dis post.. oh yeah.. 1st time i was half an hour late for lecture sia.. mapd lecture.. lolz.. went to print the project and bind the report.. so late lor.. lolz..

back..

2005-03-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

back.. been kinda busy.. with projects and all.. actually intended to post while i was in pawn lab 2dae but decided not to after dat.. tot i'd save everything for home.. den now.. dun really hav the mood to post much altho i had alot of things to post abt.. sigh.. i dunno.. part of me wants to start typing abt everything dat has happened since the last post.. the other part.. well.. i dunno.. smthing's bothering me and i cant seem 2 figure out wad.. mayb its cos deres too much to post and i dunno where to start.. or mayb its cos im jus tired.. or mayb its cos im falling sick.. having a headache and possibly slight fever.. tried to cheer myself up by watching star wars attack of the clones on vcd.. but guess it didnt really seem 2 work much.. in any case.. most of my projects are done.. jus left with msde.. sigh.. i think i really dun hav the mood 2 post.. think i'll try to go to bed.. mayb next time..

A New Story... Our Story..

2005-02-27T16:21:00.000+08:00

lolz.. alrite.. im back.. been kinda busy lately with projects and a certain someone.. :) well.. honestly i dun really noe wad to blog abt.. only thing i can say is projects and projects and more projects.. tml's the dry run of my cmsk presentation in the skool concourse.. funny as hell.. im not worried.. still very relaxed abt it.. anyway.. gonna go play soccer with gerard and gang in awhile.. we played yrstrday from 4 til 9.. ironman sia.. we were laughing our heads off most of the time cos the golden goal jus wouldnt go in.. everyone kept missing or hitting the posts.. my hamstrings ache lyk hell now.. think mayb i'll go out 2nite to look for a birthday present for my cousin justin.. owe him his present.. dunno wad 2 buy also.. mayb i'll get him a soccer jersey or smthing.. been planning for the celebration for the 24th march after the last paper for exams.. actually intended to hav a dinner at suntec city.. dun think i shall talk too much abt it.. jus in case.. u neva noe who might b reading dis.. jus hope nothing spoils the plans la.. hopefully.. *fingers crossed* so yeah.. dats abt it la.. nothing much happened 2dae either.. went to church.. wanted to send my laptop for servicing but turns out i gotta go to the HP centre direct.. oh yeah.. my mum wants me 2 go 2 australia sia during the hols.. cos my cousin dere getting married in april.. haiz.. den if i go.. will b gone for at least 2 weeks.. den mer.. haiz.. anyway i havent confirmed if im going or not yet la.. chances are i'll jus go for the wedding and mayb fly back on my own or smthing.. dun wanna b away 4 too long.. ok den.. til the next post.. MerMer's MiLkYdOg out! this song's for u my dear..

~Across the miles It's funny to me.. How far you are.. But how near you seem to be.. I could talk all night.. Just to hear you breathe.. I could spend my life.. Just living this dream.. You're all I'll ever need.. You give me strength.. You give me hope.. You give me someone to love someone to hold.. When I'm in your arms.. I need you to know.. I've never been.. I've never been this close..~

"Close"- by Westlife
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jus a song.. a meaningful song..

2005-02-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

errrm.. nothing much 2 blog.. actually got la.. but.. not ready to blog dat yet.. so i'll jus put a song 2dae.. i lyk it alot..

Baby you're so beautiful,
and when i'm near you,
i can't breathe,(i can't breathe)
A girl like you gets what she wants,
when she wants it,
You're so out of my league,(out my league)
I show you no emotion,
Don't let you see,
what you're doin' to me,(that's what you seeing baby)
I imagine the two of us together,
but i've been living in reality,
Fear of rejection,
kept my love inside,
But time is running out,
so damn my foolish pride,

I don't care if you think i'm crazy,(crazy)
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad,(i don't care)
I've got no fear of losing you,
You can't lose what you never had,
Now i'm gonna confess, that i love you, (love you)
I've been keeping it inside,(inside),
feelin i could die,
But if you turn away, baby that's O.K.,
At least we had a moment,before you say goodbye,
You cant lose what you never had,

Rules are made for breaking,(breaking)
Nothing ventured nothing gained,
I'll be no worse off,
than i am right now,
and i might never get that chance again,baby,
Fear of rejection,kept my love inside,
Told my heart i didn't want you, but i lied,

I don't care if you think i'm crazy,(i'm crazy)
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad,(doesn't matter if it turns out bad)
I've got no fear of losing you,
You can't lose what you never had,(yeah)
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you,(i love you)
I've been keeping it inside,(inside)
feelin i could die,(i could die)
But if you turn away, baby that's O.K,
At least we'll have a moment before,
you say good-bye,(before you say goodbye)

Here on the outside looking in,
Don't wanna stay dreaming bout,
what could have been,
Need to hear you speak my name,
even if you shoot me down in flames,

I don't care if you think i'm crazy,(i 'm crazy baby)
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad,(if it turns out bad)
I've got no fear of losing you,
You can't lose what you never had,
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you,(that i love you girl)
I've been keepin it inside,
feelin i could die,(die)
But if you turn away, baby that's O.K,
At least we have a moment before,you say good-bye,
You can't loose what you never had,
You can't loose what you never had,
You can't loose what you never had......

'Cant Lose What U Neva Had' - by Westlife

suffocating.. help..!!

2005-02-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

im gonna die in my sleep 2nite.. dere was a bush fire near my house dis afternoon and scdf only managed to put the fire out lyk.. a few hours ago.. the damage was the size of 10 football fields.. now the whole house smells of ash and smoke.. the whole neighbourhood actually.. smells lyk the stench of mordor.. where the very air u breathe is poison to ur lungs.. *cough cough* and on top of dat i've got no voice!! lost my voice after 3 days of cheering and shouting during tp's open house.. the 1st day sucked big time man.. stpats ppl are jus screwed up.. damn fed up with dem lor.. no respect for the lecturers.. no respect for anyone actually.. i think the whole bunch of dem's gonna fail 'o' levels dis year.. wun b surprised if dey do.. went back 2 stpats on the 1st day 2 pick the idiots up.. the skool's changed alot since i left.. met brandon lee.. ho chee wai.. timothy goh.. brother nicholas.. and alot more familiar faces.. over at business skool.. one of the stupid stpats idiots put the clip on mic in his ear cos he tot it was a earpiece.. dumb sia.. stpats will always b stpats.. thankfully the 2nd day was the total opposite.. the sji guys were really really great.. very well behaved and polite.. really enjoyed being their guide.. well.. now the whole of tp i-guides noes me and junyan.. cos on the 2nd day we were dancing on the bridge with eugene.. walked arnd skool and noticed a few girls giggling at me.. lolz.. lastly.. 2dae!! the last day of the open house.. kinda sucked.. alot of confusion everywhere.. but.. was fun la.. overall.. danced on the bridge with junyan and eugene again.. haha.. got 4 papercuts on my fingers from 2dae.. didnt even noe dey were dere.. anyway.. sent mer home after i-guides.. sat beside her on the bus.. 1st time sia.. kok-ed her head cos dere was a volkswagon beetle at the shell petrol station.. ;p red colour.. most amazing thing was.. mer msged me when she was on her way to her aunt's house for dinner.. i neva expected her 2 msg me cos.. well.. she doesnt really msg me much.. but it was a real pleasant surprise to hear from her so yeah.. kinda happy 2nite.. happy but tired.. lolz.. and suffocating!! argh!! *cough cough* gonna get lung cancer overnite sia.. okok.. long enuf already la.. 3 days worth in 1 entry.. so til next time!

~mer ;p i've been watching you.. every little thing you do.. every time I see you pass.. in my homeroom class, makes my heart beat fast.. i've tried to page you twice.. but I see you roll your eyes.. wish I could make it real.. but your lips are sealed.. hey juliet! i think ur fine.. u really blow my mind.. maybe someday, u and me can run away.. i jus wan u 2 know.. i wanna be ur romeo.. hey juliet! girl you got me on my knees.. begging please, baby please.. got my best DJ on the radiowaves saying 'hey juliet, why do you do him this way'.. too far 2 turn around.. so I'm gonna stand my ground.. gimme just a little bit of hope with a smile or a glance, gimme one more chance ..~

-'Hey Juliet' by LMNT
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open house..

2005-02-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

alrite.. so tml's gonna b the start of the open house.. chances are im probably gonna get sent back to stpats to bring the ppl over to skool.. best part is.. im so not prepared for dat.. dunno wad 2 talk abt in the bus on the way down sia.. jia lad.. siao liao.. anyway.. made a fool of myself 2dae in the library.. haha.. was in project room 3 with junyan, yenchern, sam and yizhu.. den the new age girl song started playing so yizhu and me did the mass dance to the song.. den i did a retro version of it and suddenly realised dere will girls looking at me from outside.. i literally dropped 2 the floor sia.. roflmao.. everyone was really laughing until their stomach's hurt.. haha.. but wad the heck.. laughter's a luxury we all can afford.. so if making a fool of myself's wad it takes to keep the laughter going.. den so be it.. :) hmmm.. anything else..? oh yeah.. im losing my appetite sia.. cant eat as much as b4.. guess age catching up with me and im no longer growing.. lolz.. oh well.. didnt manage to reach the height i originally aimed for.. 188.. but wad the heck.. 181's good enuf.. :) jus hope dat my future gf's around mer's height or smthing.. or betta still.. mer herself.. lolz.. ;p *crosses fingers* hahaha.. okok.. think i've crapped enuf le.. til the next post!

~Would you dance if I asked you to dance..? Would you run and never look back..? Would you cry if you saw me crying..? And would you save my soul tonight..? Would you tremble if I touched your lips..? Or would you laugh..? Oh please tell me this.. Now would you die for the one you loved..? Hold me in your arms tonight..~

-'Hero' by Enrique Iglesias
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~*5i V!z PaCum PaRaBeLLum*~

gdbye everyone~

25-6-2006

Always in my heart

another choice..

Sunderland Moranges

a sad sorrowful week

If I Were You - Hoobastank

nutmeg day~!

What's Left Of Me - Nick Lachey

Photo - Ryan Cabrera

Enlistment

sicK!!!!

April 18th

To my dearest

Photographs - A Tribute To My Dearest Friends

tales of an allied soldier

wad now joac..?

big match big match!!

cowardly courage..

my curse..

9/2/06

haiz...

[SGDOD]

cold sunday~

HePpi BeRtHdAe 2 MiEeEe

;)

sick ='(

busy busy~

a load off my shoulders

weekend~!!

office outing escapade~

1st day of work...

stupid gut feeling...............

Emily Rose?

Blue Light..

phew~

=D

Got my liverpool jersey~!!

yucks...

=S

王八蛋...

*yawnzzz

Lonely~

cmsk

MP ah MP....

Happy 6th Month~!!

dilemma

goal~!!!

untitled

phew~

it was supposed to b a happy day.....

Unfair.........

mwsm... haiz...

its been awhile~

cramp-ster~!!!

chicken heaven~~!!

tired day~!

wads with dis world?!!?

stupid comp

Zzzzzz

i'm not me anymore

Miss U Nights...

The Ghost Of U & Me..

Champions~~

touched by the hands of an angel..

back to skool..

lalalala..~~

finally found wad i've been looking for..

dod humiliation!!

tomorrow.. a betta day..?

some things dun change...

sleepy...

mayb it wasnt such a bad day afterall..

woke up on the wrong side of bed..

mothers.. unreasonable.. irritating..

food glorious food..

happy 2nd month.. altho the post's a lil late..

sunburnt...

Kryptonite...

~5i V!z PaCum PaRaBeLLum~